Seems like the perfect forum topic for me to be in...Thanks LS!

[temporaryvisa]

First off, I want to thank LoveShack for really not getting down on my sorry ass yesterday for my poorly worded thread and strange attention wanting behavior. I didn’t exactly want attention yesterday but I know I came off as being desperate for something..

 

But I feel clear today

 

So, if you have no idea what I’m talking about—I guess you could say I’m a shallow girl, about to turn 20 (well not for a while) and am willing to make some big changes for the big 2-0. I want to be a smart, successful, kind and charming person who also happens to be pretty cute, not a narcissistic, vain, depressed, shallow, jealous girl who is never happy with herself.

 

I love the people on this site. I have been lurking threads all day/last night, and I feel so much compassion and care from these folks, some of whom have gone through so much.

 

Husbands with addictions, falling in love with a married man, getting cheated on, etc…Ack! I’m so young and lucky, I should be happy. Not miserable.

 

I am 19, I’m Indian. Moved to Canada when I was 8/9. Never had many REAL friends—lets just say there’s no strength in numbers in this case. I’m extremely outgoing, super energetic, constantly hear that I never seem like I could be tired, and I think a lot of people find me annoying. I think I’m attractive, but it’s never enough to just be cute. It feels, sometimes, that I have to be the cutest

 

Logic doesn’t work with me.

 

I’m willing to take this day by day. Today I didn’t look in the mirror even once. Left without any makeup on cept lip gloss and at work, I refrained from checking people out to see if I’m being checked out. I just went about my business.

 

I started today by thinking kind thoughts about myself...

It’s way harder than expected.]Anyway in short: Thanks LS, I’ll be on and try to improve myself, I’m actually friendly!! And sometimes I have good advice! XOX.

BTW--- Before I said I have big nipples and it makes me insecure--its cuz I've heard guys who don't like big nipples and go on and on how its the number 1 turn off.

 

I can't get rid of my stretchies by rubbing cocoa butter. They're bad, but also it doesn't work...they're white. Blend in with my pale indian ass sometimes, but not all the time.

Edited May 18, 2011 by temporaryvisa