EgoJoe Posted May 19, 2011 Posted May 19, 2011 It hurts and the confusion itself is sometimes the worst. My ex...and I loathe to call her that will say she's done and then leave a shred of doubt and it kills me. Officially where she stands is that she doesn't want to hear from me for awhile while she sort things out. But we've been LDR for a bit and then she started to tell me she's confused, broken, stressed from school, etc. etc and at first I was trying to be supportive because she had all of these legitimate reasons. Now, I'm absolutely clueless and I don't know if she was picking the fights that started this process or what. You are not alone. Try to focus on yourself. I'm giving tiny bits of advice to others at this point as a reminder to myself and beause it helps to reiterate stuff that was told to me. I may never see her again and she was my first love and first best friend. I also have to come to terms with the very plausible possibility of her being with someone else as things went downhill for us. Realizing that she might not have wanted to let me go completely as some sort of backup plan....after 3 years and an amazing relationship that was strained by distance, time zones and an economy. You will be ok, I will be ok. There are lessons to be learned in life. It might not all be fate but if you haven't learned something that is affecting your life in a negative manner by repeating these things or whatever you will learn a lesson important to you. Try not to hate and just try to understand. Keep your head up, I'm in the same boat. Don't even have closure and I'm struggling to find it for myself without becoming bitter.
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