fiefa Posted May 17, 2011 Posted May 17, 2011 An ex of mine and I, have this weird relationship where whenever anything horrible happens, we can lose touch, but always come back to one another. This has been going on for the last 5 years. We both went to a friends party, we both had far too much alcohol, but it allowed us to open up to one another in a way that we haven't been able to before. We spent a fair share of the party away from everyone else just talking and opening up to one another. She admitted to making mistakes in the past, I admitted to making mistakes in the past and that we both still care about each other, she always calls me the good/great friend. We ended up just cuddling on a bed for hours, she started to cry i held her and told her i would never leave her like others have. She was so focused on the fact that I was near her, and not her best-friends who were there as well. I told her that i wouldn't kiss(kissed her forehead) her since we were both intoxicated and I didn't want her to have any regrets about doing anything. When everyone was leaving it was pouring rain out, i told her i would walk her home. she kept trying to get me to leave since i might get sick, but i had to know that she would get home safely. Along the way she kept asking me why i liked her and how i could do so much better than her, and that why is it that even though she made mistakes that i could even still want to be with her. Didn't matter to me her smile means a lot. we get to her house i go give her a hug goodnight, it lasts a while, i kiss her forehead again as im leaving then we actually kiss. I call her up once im home, check and see if she is ok(she had a lot more alc than myself) she tells me that she was sober when we kissed. The following day we met up and i asked what the previous day meant to her. She explained that she does like me, but having recently broken up with her boyfriend she needs time, and having some family issues isn't making it easier. Part of me really wants to wait it out and see the other part just either wants to move on or something needs to happen already, we've been in this situation in the past and it always resurfaces. It's never been a simple friendship, we have always had an emotional and physical connection. having talked to her friends as well, I'm the only ex she has ever kept in contact with as well. Any advice would be welcome
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