orion1010 Posted May 17, 2011 Posted May 17, 2011 (edited) My ex fiance came over saturday to "discuss finances" for our apartment that he no longer lives at but we still share the lease until the end of July. He came over to look over some information he could have easily requested from the apartments to be mailed to him like I did. Instead of having it mailed to him, he wanted to come over and review it with me. This was something that he text me about the week before I and we talked over the phone about it shortly after. There was really nothing more to say but he asked if he could stop by and we could go over it. (I thought we just did that over the phone). In a way, I kind of wanted him to see I'm doing well. In the past year I put on 10 pounds and since he moved out in the end of march/beginning of april I started my workout routine of lifting weights and cardio and have since lost 12 pounds. I went back to my old ways of eating really clean and hitting the gym again doing the things I used to do before we met. He came over looking all spiffy and his cologne was strong. A couple of times when he looked at me and made eye contact with this sort of cute grin he does I felt like there was still something there between us which made me kind of a wreak the rest of the day. I wonder if he was feeling the same in feeling there is something still there? He hasn't contacted me since so I guess if he did want me back, he would have by now? I guess I realized after a month of trying to convince myself I've moved on, I still do love him. The visit was brief, about 30-45 minutes. I had already told him I had a birthday party to attend before he came over. So after we reviewed everything, he kind of stood up and said, "well, I better get out of your hair". He then just left saying goodbye. He suddenly came back and walked in saying he forgot his keys. I got up and grabbed them. I reached my hand out palm up and open for him to grab the keys. He placed his hand over the bottom of my hand and slide the keys out of my hand to make physical contact with me it seemed. all the while making eye contact with that grin of his. I was thinking the last couple of days about the two short lived dating experiences I've had, I'm happy I don't have any new dates lined up. right now, I don't feel as lonely as I first did and look forward to what might be next but at this point I don't want it now after those two horriable dating experiences I've had. Right now I'm just date-less and OK with that looking forward to my girls night this coming friday. You would think seeing your ex would drive you to find another date?? Do you think he's noticed the 12 pounds? Do you think he perhaps misses me too? Edited May 17, 2011 by orion1010 bad spelling :)
USCGAviator Posted May 18, 2011 Posted May 18, 2011 I guarantee he noticed your newly refined features and his gestures would indicate to me that he's still interested in you. At the least I would have told you that you looked great. Not sure why he didn't. It's a nice breath of fresh air to be single and not have to cater to anyone. I'm thoroughly enjoying my singlehood after almost 10yrs. Enjoy yours as well
oaks Posted May 18, 2011 Posted May 18, 2011 Do you think he's noticed the 12 pounds? Do you think he perhaps misses me too? Did he notice the 10 pounds you put on?
Author orion1010 Posted May 18, 2011 Author Posted May 18, 2011 I'm not sure if he did. He never said anything if he did..my family says since I've lost 12 pounds, they can really see it in my face. I guess when you see someone every day it's hard to notice 10 pounds being put on slowly through the year. I know it was 10 pounds b/c during my anual with my doctor, she mentioned it to me. so discussed diet and I agreed with my doctor I would start working out again.
Author orion1010 Posted May 18, 2011 Author Posted May 18, 2011 I guarantee he noticed your newly refined features and his gestures would indicate to me that he's still interested in you. At the least I would have told you that you looked great. Not sure why he didn't. It's a nice breath of fresh air to be single and not have to cater to anyone. I'm thoroughly enjoying my singlehood after almost 10yrs. Enjoy yours as well I agree. I'm really enjoying having no preasure on me right now after rushing into two bad dating experiences after the breakup. Feels kind of free.. Just worrying about yourself for awhile. I have more money, more time, doing the things I used to do, connecting with friends. Things I should have not slowy disapear out of my life. Maybe my feelings will change soon, but right now, it's how I feel.
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