sun_moon Posted May 16, 2011 Posted May 16, 2011 No no no, you can all breath now, i did not get a text from my recent ex that has been oh so demented and cruel to me. I actually got a text from my 1st love, omg, it seems like ancient history. I actually dont know the exact time, maybe its been over 7 years since our relationship ended. All it said is, I got a new number this is -----, are you ok? I am posting this for two very good reasons: 1. For all those people out there that are going through the worst experience possible, the shattering of a broken heart from a FIRST LOVE. This is a sign of hope, that your life does go on, and you do find many more meaningful relationships after that, till you find the one. Needless to say, I have not found the one. Why all the sudden do I feel like Carrie from Sex in The City? lol 2. Today I woke up so miserable and hopeless, angry, depressed beyond belief, sleepless, restless, thinking how is it possible that a man that claimed he loved me so much, more than I will ever know, move on so quickly, be happy already, tell me about it out of anger/spite/immaturity/EVIL!!!!! ..to the point where I am wondering if he ever even loved me during our two years together, I started to tell myself he didnt this weekend and I was sooooooooooo sad. I am still determined to forget him and keep banking on the fact that his fling will shatter because after all it is a REBOUND, and that he will have to reflect on his repressed misery and sadness while I'm better off. That he will be regretful and sorry. I will most likely NEVER KNOW... I feel like this text from the blast from the past is a sign (I'm not religious, more spiritual and practical than anything), a sign telling me, REMEMBER how you felt before, remember how wronged and shattered you were before, how he ended up eating his words, apologizing to you, not forgiving himself, remember how he told you it was the biggest mistake of his life to let you go, REMEMBER! where was I at that point, I was ok, I moved on, I was dating or in relationships, because he contacted me many times..... Dont worry guys, I have no interest in rekindling anything, this is not about me rebounding or finding an emotional crutch. We are not the same people anymore, and I am interested in my future not a broken past. I really feel like this is a sign telling me, that my current heart ache, how I am being wronged now by my most recent ex, how he's treating me so badly and rubbing salt on the wound, by rebounding and telling me he's "happy, she is good for him"...it will all come back to him. Call it karma, sorrow, regret, pain, ANYTHING...it will happen. Yes bad things do happen to good people, but bad things happen to bad people as well. I'm sorry guys, I recognize that I'm transitioning from sadness to anger.
Jdw_Icequeen Posted May 16, 2011 Posted May 16, 2011 Wow 7 yrs ago huh? I have been here for a long time, mostly reading. I see this happen so many times exs from years ago popping up after a recent breakup.. How odd?? I am both religous and spiritual and beleive in signs and karma.. I have also dealt with my evil ex husband who did the same things your ex seems to be doing to you. Its nice to get a little boost out of emotional turmoil. Sounds like this text help you do some refelcting into your future, even though it came from someone from your past..
Author sun_moon Posted May 16, 2011 Author Posted May 16, 2011 Yes it is very strange. He has no ties to me. He's in another state, we are not connected online in anyway, and his number changed and I dont know when....but he texted me with his new number. Yes I'm not sure what he wants but I'm sure he needs advice or perhaps he's going through something similar. In my current situation, I really hope that I can stay strong and positive, am I so bad for wanting my recent ex to feel sadness/remorse/humility/regret ? Its because I am still very much still in pain.... CURSE HIM
Jdw_Icequeen Posted May 17, 2011 Posted May 17, 2011 Not at all... Most of us have felt the same way towards our exs, some of us even want some type of revenge. Its completley normal to feel angry towards them. Especially if they are acting spiteful and evil in some way. I would also think that these feelings you want him to feel are what your feeling and of course you would want him to feel them to since he is partly to blame. It seems very unfair we carry all the burden of these feelings when they go on seemingly living their happy little lives without us. Anger can really help in the early stages of a BU it pushes us to take them off their little pedastool of awesomeness! Eventually most people work through this anger and come to the point of indiffrence. Once you get there you will either forgive him and move on realizing that, yes he is acting ridiculous and ignorant making many mistakes along the way. But still human and we all make them.. It is up to you if someday you are able to forgive him. The anger stage is normal and there isn't anything wrong with it. Infact if you didn't feel angry in some way I would think that you wouldn't be normal. I'm not completley sure of your back story but I assume he left you and you make it sound like he is being a huge prick on top of it.
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