KrazySexyKool Posted May 16, 2011 Posted May 16, 2011 I wasted 2 years of my life on this guy and I only asked for honesty even if that meant that he didn't want a relationship. He said he wanted a relationship and 11 months later he didn't. I was hurt because I asked him that before we agreed to be together and he LIED. That's what hurt so much. It has taken me a year to get past that because honestly if he had cheated that would have hurt but less than him lying about wanting to be with me. I have been cheated on and it did not hurt like this: of course when that one cheated he never lied I just found the earrings. Anyway it just took me a long time and I had a lot of resentment because I like honesty and if you didn't want me as your partner than tell me and let me decide if I wanted to stay: I probably would have at least for a while because i enjoyed his company. It is very difficult living alone and beyond the pain: I know we weren't together as long as some of you but when I love I give it my all and I swear he took a part of me when he left because I am not whole. This is my journey back to whole and I pray everyday to be a better person and for a honest faithful hardworking man to find me because I'm right HERE! If you are going through a breakup now or recently broken up just find something that makes your smile and keep busy to take your mind off of it. I cried at least 3 times a week over the past year and a month so i know how it is. I just stopped crying but I am glad that I only tear up as I type this. There is pleasure past the pain just endure and know this is not the end. Good luck and this is not the end of me.
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