stumbleine Posted May 16, 2011 Posted May 16, 2011 Hello. I usually don't post on forums on this kind of thing, but I'm feeling pretty down, so I thought I'd vent. I'm 20 and I feel so alone. I have only ever had one true girlfriend. It was in my teen years (when I was 17)..she was the only girl I ever kissed or anything. It lasted a little over half a year. I still don't feel like I'm even completely over her, which is sad I guess. Then, around December of 2009 I met a girl who became my best friend, we thought we were soul mates and all, but it was more than just best friends, but yet again, it wasn't anything sexual (We were so close, it's hard to explain)...we wanted to wait, but two days ago, after being best friends for all that time, we finally ended our friendship over the past month or two of arguing. I often dreamed of being with her, but now it's hopeless. The chapter is over with. Now I'm 20, and I feel like love for me is hopeless. I'm quite socially awkward. I'm not particularly good looking. There's nowhere to go really to meet anyone where I live, and somehow I feel like any confidence I had really went down the drain. I just feel so lonely, and I feel myself dwelling on the past too much, because it seems like that was the only love in my life I'll ever have. I see myself living alone with a house full of cats in my future lol. Anyone ever been in the same boat or have words of encouragement?
Kari Posted May 16, 2011 Posted May 16, 2011 Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, in your eyes you may be average, to another you can look above it. You are still young, you have years to find a proper girlfriend, don't be so down on yourself. People on this website are still dating in there 50's & 60's. They never gave up. I'm sorry about your friendship that ended, don't let it discourage you. You can still expand your social circle. I used to be a full out introvert, but now I have a much easier time communicating with people. I just learned to leave my shell. The more positive you put into the world, the more positive will come back. Focus on yourself now. Surround yourself with other friends or family members, just go out and have a good time. Try and put the past behind you, all that matters right now is what is to come. Focus on right now.
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