long distance hell??

[daveyboy1986]

Heres how the story goes, i have been with this girl for four months now...basically she is german and i met her in a night club one night when out with friends. Straight away we had this strong connection and fell in love very quickly which i have never fell in love with a girl so quick. i didnt realise the next two months of my life would be so amazing. Once i got to know her she told me she works in england for 3 months and does uni in germany for 3 months. I accepted this and we both believed that we had something special and decided to do the long distance thing. When she went back to germany the first 3 weeks went well we talked via text, phone and skype it was all good. We always made a promise to text once in the morning and once at night....simple. Then her uni life kicked in and the texts got less and less...she was partying regularly till the early hours of the morning and sometimes the absences would last up to 15 hours before she got in touch....then the worst thing happened to me i started to get paranoid and jealous and started to accuse her of cheating and this lasted for 5 weeks. I guess it was all the excuses like her battery died or she fell asleep on the sofa or she was sleeping. Granted she is doing a course which is intense she does a 3 year course in a year and a half, starts at 8 in the morning and finishes at 6 at night. never understood why she could never text when with friends or she couldnt answer the phone at this time. it got to me so much that it affected my whole life..i could sleep, work properly etc everything. When i accused her she always told me i was stupid and she would never do that to me. she stood by me even though i broke up with her twice and she talked me out of it. she tells me all the time she loves me and even says she wants to marry me. But still everynow and again an absense of talking to her comes along. Then finally after waiting for a long time i went to germany to see her and when i got there she seemed off with me. I got there and it was me making all the approaches. The first night we laid in bed and she cuddle me, i tried to kiss her and she didnt react much....i started to worry and then i got the idea she didnt want to have sex....therefore i said to her theres only to reasons why one she doesnt want to make love? one she doesnt love me?? or or two she is sleeping with someone else??? we had a massive arguement and she wouldnt touch me at all. We talked about and she said that she just wanted to cuddle first. i accepted that and the next day i went back to normal, but no she was still off with me and i just couldnt accept it...i kept arguing all weekend and she said she cant just be normal with me after the arguements and often said if this messes up these 4 days to get it right for the rest of our life then thats what we have to do. She is talking to a guy she had a sexual relationship with and text him even when i was with her told me all about him and what they talk about...no secrets but is this the other man??? it annoyed me that we would be in bed and he would text her at like two in the morning.i broke down twice in front of her twice and no reaction...Is this her defense mechanism....i dont understand how i made all that effort to see her and she couldnt make love to me???. After the weekend i got back to normal and the texts were back again i told her i didnt want to argue and its been a good week i have felt alot better...then last night she said she fell asleep on the sofa again i got a text at 4 in the morning. Ive just talked to her on skype and she doesnt want to talk about these problems anymore she just wants me to be normal. Im so confused and i feel im the only one who makes the effort everythink is on her time scale. Is there another man??? is it all me in the wrong??? i feel like im starting not care anymore but i love her so much just dont get why i have to arrange me life around her all the time??? Im such a loving person and what she done last weekend was the worst thing she could do to a guy who wears his heart on his sleeve. Do you think i should find someone else??? i just dont know if i can do this long distance thing...please help me

[daisy love]

When I see my love after time apart, we can't keep our hands of each other!!

Your story raises a red flag. Sorry, sweetie.