LSChic Posted May 13, 2011 Posted May 13, 2011 So, after 3 years of dealing with a chronic sickness, my fiance decided to bail. It was the first time that my illness landed me in the hospital and he said that he wasn't sure he could handle it. Today, he made it clear that it was completely over. The illness is of psychiatric and physical nature. It's kind of a mix of the two. I am disabled but trying to make it as a law student despite having to go to the doctor for an extended time 5 days a week. I miss him so badly and we're still talking as though nothing happened. We've both decided that NC will start after finals are over and I will be traveling this summer so I guess that helps. But for now, trying to go NC is like trying to quit smoking and you should never try to quit smoking during law school final exams. I feel rejected and like I'll never find anyone else or anyone as good. I'm disabled, not particularly beautiful (sort of heavy), and limited in doing a lot of fun things. I'm going to try to exercise, eat right, and meet guys but all of those things are very hard for me because of my disability. My mom has had to drive to my apartment every day to get me out of bed because of the depression. She had to work today and I got out of bed at 4pm (even though I went to bed at 9pm) and have been surfing the net ever since. I've never felt so alone and hopeless.
cdeyoung Posted May 14, 2011 Posted May 14, 2011 You will find the right man, who will stand by you through sickness and through health... no matter what. I promise. If he bails, then you know he is not the one for you.
Desensitized Posted May 14, 2011 Posted May 14, 2011 So, after 3 years of dealing with a chronic sickness, my fiance decided to bail. It was the first time that my illness landed me in the hospital and he said that he wasn't sure he could handle it. Today, he made it clear that it was completely over. The illness is of psychiatric and physical nature. It's kind of a mix of the two. I am disabled but trying to make it as a law student despite having to go to the doctor for an extended time 5 days a week. I miss him so badly and we're still talking as though nothing happened. We've both decided that NC will start after finals are over and I will be traveling this summer so I guess that helps. But for now, trying to go NC is like trying to quit smoking and you should never try to quit smoking during law school final exams. I feel rejected and like I'll never find anyone else or anyone as good. I'm disabled, not particularly beautiful (sort of heavy), and limited in doing a lot of fun things. I'm going to try to exercise, eat right, and meet guys but all of those things are very hard for me because of my disability. My mom has had to drive to my apartment every day to get me out of bed because of the depression. She had to work today and I got out of bed at 4pm (even though I went to bed at 9pm) and have been surfing the net ever since. I've never felt so alone and hopeless. Most of us have been where you're at, and perhaps this won't be the last time you feel this way. I can understand you feel alone and helpless, but it's not the end of the world - trust me. You seem to be a very hard working and very caring woman, and those attributes are greatly appreciated by many men in the world (I'm also sure you have other fantastic qualities, I'm just listing a few). Maybe he didn't break up with you because you're sick, maybe it was something else. My ex-fiancee also had many things wrong with her, but I didn't leave her because of her illnesses. Yes, it may be somewhat of a burden at times to take care of someone who is sick, but if he loves you, it won't matter. Like the person before me said, the right person for you will love you in sickness and in health. Like I told my ex-fiancee, "I'll love you in sickness and in health... but mostly in sickness." haha. I will always care about her, and I'm sure he'll always care about you too. Give it time, see what happens. For now, this is just another life experience for you. Take care and good luck.
NikkEliz Posted May 14, 2011 Posted May 14, 2011 LSChic, I'm sorry you are going through this. I'm going through a tough break up too and know how hard it is. You need to know that you deserve someone who will support you through everything and love you for you, exactly as you are. Know that you are beautiful just as you are.
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