guccimane99 Posted May 13, 2011 Posted May 13, 2011 Well Loveshackers as you can tell from my title my life is on a major downhill. I am wondering to myself when is life going to get better. I dated this girl fell head over heels for she broke up with me i do not the reason only logical one was being "too nice". I am still a virgin and did not want to have sex till i could look her in the eyes and say "i love you." The problem with being me is i am to nice and tell it like it is i am not a dick and just want to make a girl happy by being a "gentleman". Opening doors for my girlfriend, making her dinner, and just making her feel loved. I now realize woman are not into that they like the guys that are a challenge and just **** them. It just felt right i have dated other girl, but nothing serious i just thought that this would be something great you know. The word gentleman is not a word that gets thrown now-a-days. Well she moved on to another guy who i couldn't see why she was datting. I looked at him and asked girls i knew what they thought and they did not find him attract. I heard he was a complete manipulator and ****s nasty girl until i realized that is what she wants. So i felt terrible because she made me feel like she was going to give me another chance and then she just moved on to another guy. So i was torn apart just knowing that i could've fallen in love with her and that she did not care. So i started working on myself i've always been the gym type a guy, and i have a good build because i spend alot of time at the gym. Then my bday comes around and she asks my friend how i am doing. He tells her im doing good. She had sent me a text like 2 weeks before but i didn't answer. So i started dating another girl and i liked her, but it just did not feel right. I did the mourning and worked on myself and i felt i was ready, but i just felt like she was going to realize she made a mistake and come back. Then the new girlfriend and i broke up and it wasn't bad. There were not harsh words it was a peaceful breakup. Then life just went downhill from here between me messing around and ****ing up in school. I was just to busy trying to make her realize she made a big mistake, and i was the one making the mistake of putting her first and everything last. See i had a class with her and i am always groomed but when we came back i started doing things different i gelled my hair up, wore clogne, and i never wore t-shirts always something nice. Well i just focused all my attentions on that and I ended u failing a class and barely passed all my other classes. My parents were not happy expecially my mom. Im thinking to myself wow it really sucks to be because im a happy person, and not matter what i am doing i try and be happy. Its just the point i got so strung up on a girl that i was with that my priorties were messed up. When i finally got my priorties straightend out it was too late. Its been five months and im sad she is not in my life, but i know one day i will find someone who will make me smile like she did. I just still cant get over the fact how bad she messed me up and how i am still messed up by here till this day. I realize she is toxic and a bad drug for me, so i deleted my facebook and her number. I deleted all the messages on my phone and any pictures i have had with her.
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