Starnette83 Posted April 11, 2004 Posted April 11, 2004 im 21 and my bf is 20, we have been together 4 years, we are eachothers first love, first sexual...etc..anyways i have this feeling that we shouldnt be together anymore, i am hurt by alot of things hes done in the past, and cant seem to just feel ok anymore. I always feel that one day he will just leave me for another girl and i will be left really hurt..he is reallyw eird..sometimes hes so awesome and sweet with me, but sometimes he has been so cold hearted with me and it has hurt me alot...i just dont really know i know him anymore, and even though things are good with us now..i dont trust him and feel like hes gonna hurt me again like hes done in the past were he has broken up with me,and ive cried and pleaded with him but how he just pushed me away. anyways...i do love him, i love him alot..but i dont like feeling this way....also i know that if we remained together i know he will eventaulyl dump me cos he mgiht meet another girl,..hes curious how it is to be with someone else, hes told me this,...because i was his first gf , first everything, this sux to hear cos i want to feel special and feel like im the only one he wants..anyways...should i just let it go??? its hard ...i love him and i dont want to go./...but i dont want to end up more hurt later either...but what if i make a mistake?? im scared...im not used to being without him, i only see my lips kissing his, and me having sex with him, ive tried dating other people and trying to get to know other guys but none are my type and it just makes me more attached to my bf... anyways i know taht when we broke up and got back..what holds us back together is the good sex we have...thats the only BIG PLUS in our rekationship..the rest just kinda drags behind...suckey huh? he also doesnt say that he loves me anymore, and he sais he cant say it because he doesnt know if he does....will he ever know???
yes Posted April 11, 2004 Posted April 11, 2004 sounds like it's time to break up, as hard as it will be, him being your first everything and all. if you browse around, you'll see many threads about r/s's started up when very young ending once the two people grow apart. yes, you'll miss him, but i think you already know that this break-up is inevitable, so why not do it soon, heal, and be ready for a new love? of course nobody seems to be your type right now, you're very attached and used to your bf. but clearly this isn't a keeper, isn't that what your gut is telling u? best of luck, -yes PS when you miss him, come here (LS) to rant!
flowers123 Posted April 11, 2004 Posted April 11, 2004 yes, you definitely need to break it off with him, no matter how hard it may be. you want to be with somebody who feels the same way you do. so why settle? remember, time heals all wounds. know that it will get better. good luck.
Author Starnette83 Posted April 11, 2004 Author Posted April 11, 2004 thank you guys...i know i should beak up...like i called him in the morning..when i woke up..cos hes always the first one i want to hear..then he told me he was gonna go back to sleep..anyways he woke up 2 hours ago cos i saw him sign online- i had my away message on that i was studying..and he hasnt called me ...ive been outside trying to read a book for school...but having a real hard time concentrating,t hen i just layed down and felt the hot sun on my body..which felt good..and listened to music..while i held my cell phone in my hand wishing he called... uh its dumb...im not gonna call him though and i dont even know if i should pick up when he does...i already know that i should break up..yet it is so difficult..hes the only person i have at the moment, who i talk to and hang out with..and without him it just be me alone..but i guess maybe thats what i need..
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