bslchump Posted May 12, 2011 Posted May 12, 2011 I won't lie, things have been difficult for me lately. I've been thinking about her more and more and wishing she would contact me. It's been exactly 20 days since she last texted me and I ignored it. I catch myself having fantasies of her telling me she broke up with her new boyfriend because she realizes how much better I was for her. I very much doubt that, even if that were the case, she would tell me. Sometimes I feel really bummed out and I think "why am I not enjoying anything?" and then she pops back in and I go "oh yeah....". I can't even do 90% of my daily stuff without being reminded of her in some way. Everything reminds me of stuff we used to do. I've just been missing her face lately. Sometimes it feels surreal and like all I have to do is walk down the street and she'll greet me with a hug and a smile. It makes me sad to think I'll never be able to have that with her again.
Author bslchump Posted May 13, 2011 Author Posted May 13, 2011 So two members of her family called me today. The first was her grandpa asking how I was doing and making sure I was alright, and the second was her mother expressing immense relief that I wasn't angry with her (dunno why she thinks I would be). I tried to shake off the first call and got back to work, which helped clear my head, but her mom's call was very "blech" for me. She was practically crying the whole time and asking me if she could help me with anything. Luckily neither of them gave me any info about my ex, but they clearly don't approve of her decision at all. So yeah. Puts me in a yucky mood.
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