turtlegirl Posted May 11, 2011 Posted May 11, 2011 I am currently in a rut. My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 5 months. I sleep over at his house almost everyday. I love him I really do. I started taking birth control 2 months into our relationship and then these thoughts started to occur. I stopped the birth control it's been about a month since I have been off it. But these thoughts keep continuing. These random thoughts in my head say to break up with him, or he is going to find someone better, or this voice tells me i don't love him. It's taking a tremendous toll on my well being and sanity. I feel as if im in my own personal hell in my own mind. I just want to be happy and embrace the relationship but i don't know what to do I wanna stay with him i love him but my mind is fighting agaisnt my heart. I also have a history of depression and OCD and I contribute these thoughts to the OCD. My diet is also poor, I eat about once a day and I am malnourished so i think there is other factors that is causing this. I just feel like I'm weighed down with this guilt and these thoughts i can't escape them. Please can anyone offer advice, has anyone been in a similar situation. I'm lost.
BiscuitXOXO Posted May 11, 2011 Posted May 11, 2011 I think you should see a therapist/doctor/mental wellness center. Your first concern should be keeping your body healthy; after all, you don't get another one! Your second concern should be combatting depression.
VicJay79 Posted May 11, 2011 Posted May 11, 2011 TurtleGirl, Its hard to really give much advice since you have indicated psychological issues. None of us are really trained in that area to really say much more then seek professional help. I would however encourage you to enjoy the fact you have found someone as much as you can. Its hard let yourself love someone, because of your past. Become healthy. Work out. EAT. You could always have it worse, you could be living my life! I am currently in a rut. My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 5 months. I sleep over at his house almost everyday. I love him I really do. I started taking birth control 2 months into our relationship and then these thoughts started to occur. I stopped the birth control it's been about a month since I have been off it. But these thoughts keep continuing. These random thoughts in my head say to break up with him, or he is going to find someone better, or this voice tells me i don't love him. It's taking a tremendous toll on my well being and sanity. I feel as if im in my own personal hell in my own mind. I just want to be happy and embrace the relationship but i don't know what to do I wanna stay with him i love him but my mind is fighting agaisnt my heart. I also have a history of depression and OCD and I contribute these thoughts to the OCD. My diet is also poor, I eat about once a day and I am malnourished so i think there is other factors that is causing this. I just feel like I'm weighed down with this guilt and these thoughts i can't escape them. Please can anyone offer advice, has anyone been in a similar situation. I'm lost.
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