Lilmisus Posted May 9, 2011 Posted May 9, 2011 But God, it's so damn hard not to. Lately, I've been told and have seen my ex and his new little girlfriend fighting and him making her cry. I'm trying my best to keep NC with him while working together (yeah..it's hard, I know), by ignoring him and by pretending that she doesn't exist. For the past two weeks I've been doing pretty well at this. Even got a day off just so I wouldn't be in the position of working with both of them (and right next to her) so to try to keep it up. Plus, I've asked people to stop talking to me about them. To not even mention his name to me, and for the most part, people get it and are trying to help me move on. But today, I was told by my manager (who knows exactly what's going on) that his new girl was upset and that I should try to cheer her up by bringing her chocolate. I basically said hell no though, and laughed at the idea of being her shoulder to cry on when just a month and a half ago, she was mine. When I saw her a little bit later though, it was obvious that she had been crying. Soon after, I saw him walk into the room where she was at, stay in there for a few minutes, and come out, looking extremely pissed off and visibly upset. It was beyond obvious that they had just had (another) fight. Especially when I saw them avoiding each other at all costs throughout the night, and her get upset when she saw him. Don't get me wrong, I'm not watching their every move or trying to keep tabs on either of them, but all this was going on right in front of me. I actually tried to not watch them when they were near each other. But what struck me as weird, was the fact that even though they have both been ignoring me (and me them) for the past few weeks, both of them kept looking at me. I even saw him stand there and smile at me for a bit. She kept watching me when she walked by, which actually pissed me off more than anything. And both came up to where I work at for a few minutes at a time to talk (though, not together). I didn't talk to either of them when they were up there, so they talked to the others there, but kept looking at me. Seeing how he made her cry today, and knowing how he's made her cry quite a few times now, has made me wonder what it is that he's doing to her. Not calling? Ignoring her? Putting his friends first? Making up excuses as to why he can't do something? All things that I cried over numerous times in our relationship. All things that make me thankful that I'm not that girl anymore that he lets down all the time. Today, seeing her cry helped make me feel good inside, though I know it shouldn't have. It just feels good to know that she has ended up hurting herself more than she hurt me by taking him from me. When she took him, she didn't just take this great looking, funny, sexy guy. She took this selfish a**hole who doesn't give a sh*t about his girl's feelings. At least now I know without a doubt that I wasn't the problem in the relationship. He was. He definitely was. And I'm still unsure if I should be thanking her for helping get rid of such a negative part of my life and making it her own, or not. Sometimes, things just definitely happen for a reason. My future is just so much brighter without him in it, and today reinforced that known fact, once more.
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