Callisto484 Posted May 8, 2011 Posted May 8, 2011 I told my H to not contact me for any other reason than to discuss impending divorce proceedings. I simply did not want to engage in any other conversations with him. When I do speak to him, I come across as weak and pathetic. I so love him and so wish we could work things out but trying to get him to see my point of view is futile. He's not happy and that's that. So I told him not to contact me for personal reasons. I had to. It was driving me insane. My pathetic whining and his cold, matter of fact way of dealing with this. Plus he gives off too many mixed signals. I just had to stop that... Now I'm just going along with the flow. Let's get the divorce going so I can go my own way. I'm tired. I have been crying for months and only now am I recognizing my strength and resilience. Thinking about it now. Would I even want him back? So he can continue being the obnoxious condescending bastard that he has turned into? I miss the old him...the one I fell in love with....what happened to that sweetheart? Cause the man I see before me now is not the man I met years ago...
tobydog1 Posted May 8, 2011 Posted May 8, 2011 I completely understand, where do the men we loved, go to? I am certain that I would/could never have my ex back. I think we reach a point when we are totally exhausted and in order to survive, we have to look forward. Self preservation and all that. I am glad you are finding your strength is coming back, it has to and believe it or not this whole terrible process has to make us stronger in the end. I wish you all the best, keep being strong!
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