justagirrl Posted May 6, 2011 Posted May 6, 2011 Hi everyone, So i saw him a few days ago at his dorm and we hung out and had a great time as usual...but there are still so many things on my mind that I want to tell him. I can't even remember how many times he was telling me how beautiful my eyes looked, and how nice my outfit was...I'm even crying right now just writing this. He tells me i'm the only girl he's seeing (we've been dating for 5 months)...we're not official yet but I want to be, and I believe him. He's completely different in person. When we're texting I feel so strong like I can just tell him everything that's on my mind...but these are things I'd rather talk about in person because I think it's immature to talk about serious things behind a phone...maybe it's just me. I've sent him messages on facebook before telling him how I feel (the reason we're not together right now is because he wants to graduate college and be back to his "normal self" ...stress free. I can already tell that person is coming back because of the way he was acting the other day). I don't want to seem annoying and write him another message because I've already done it 2 times...sometimes in texts too just saying how I feel. This time, I want to put him in his place. I feel like he's taking advantage of me in every aspect. We spent the night together at his dorm a few weeks ago (he doesn't have his car on campus, i live about 10 min away from campus and he lives 15 from campus) he was going to call his mom to come pick him up because he goes home on the weekends, but me being a nice person...I offered to drive him home if he wanted. We texted a few times during the next few days...then I attempted going NC. That lasted about 3 days until he texted me late one night on the weekend when I was out with my friends having a good time for once. Saying he missed me, asking how i am...what i had for dinner? (what...?) even calling me baby and using hearts <3........strange. He hasn't done that in a really really long time. So my mind is all over the place right now and it's driving me crazy =( I just want things to be back to the way they were when we met over winter break and didn't have college to worry about. He's done with school FOREVER in 3 days.......I really wanna stick around and see if he comes to his senses. NC seemed to work for a few days, I think he was wondering why I wasn't texting him and maybe got worried I was mad or something? I just don't get it anymore and THIS is why I want to talk to him in person. I don't even know what to say or the order to say it in. I just feel like he's taking advantage of the fact that he knows how much I really care about him and feels like he can do anything and it won't bother me. He feels like he can be really silly around me, and I like when he's like that because we just laugh at eachother and have an amazing time even if we're just laying next to eachother doing nothing but talking. He even said he's not embarassed because it's me...he obviously feels comfortable enough to be a complete goofball... I absolutely want to talk about things in person with him...I just don't know exactly what to say, and how to say it =/ Thanks for reading this
Author justagirrl Posted May 6, 2011 Author Posted May 6, 2011 all i want to do is cry, that sounds so stupid, i really feel like im being taken advantage of but i don't want to let go yet =( I feel like he's going back to acting like himself again it just hurts so much waiting. we talked thru text yesterday, it was his birthday...he posted a pic on facebook of him with really short hair (he has hair like tarzan) and was telling people he cut his hair...i didn't believe him because he always says how he could never cut his hair so i was like oh send me a pic when i get out of work! and he was like okay i will later im in the car. never happened... so i texted him when i got home. the other day when i was with him, we were talking about how we wanted to go to california...so i said in the text "would you want to go to cali for a few days with me this summer?" that was around 11 last night. NO ANSWER. still no answer. i'm freaking out.
ilovedhim Posted May 6, 2011 Posted May 6, 2011 (edited) I just feel like he's taking advantage of the fact that he knows how much I really care about him and feels like he can do anything and it won't bother me. It doesn't seem you're very confident in the relationship. After reading your second post I would say pull away for a bit and see what happens. Edited May 6, 2011 by ilovedhim
Author justagirrl Posted May 6, 2011 Author Posted May 6, 2011 I'm trying starting NC today. I hope it works. It's just knowing he didn't answer that...it's very upsetting
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