Callisto484 Posted May 4, 2011 Posted May 4, 2011 Feeling so anxious. Another day and I have tried to be strong. Today, I find myself saying over and over "OMG this cannot be happening." I just want to go home and sleep in my own bed. Feel the familiarity of my own home, make some coffee and just be.. Now I feel like a fish out of water. Staying with my incredibly senile elderly father, no privacy, no sense of belonging, just feeling out of place..sad, depressed, angry and many times in despair. My husband in CA attending to his own needs while I'm here in NY with no job, no money, no apartment. I really wish I had made better decisions...This unexpected reality is just daunting. I feel like the rug was just pulled out from under my feet.
PollyIvy Posted May 5, 2011 Posted May 5, 2011 Feeling so anxious. Another day and I have tried to be strong. Today, I find myself saying over and over "OMG this cannot be happening." I just want to go home and sleep in my own bed. Feel the familiarity of my own home, make some coffee and just be.. Now I feel like a fish out of water. Staying with my incredibly senile elderly father, no privacy, no sense of belonging, just feeling out of place..sad, depressed, angry and many times in despair. My husband in CA attending to his own needs while I'm here in NY with no job, no money, no apartment. I really wish I had made better decisions...This unexpected reality is just daunting. I feel like the rug was just pulled out from under my feet. I hear ya. It's all so bewildering. Strength x
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