fishman3226 Posted April 9, 2004 Posted April 9, 2004 Hello all! I am writing this becasue I am unsur what to think here. Eary February my live in girlriend of 14 months decided she wanted to leave cause she wanted to 'enlighten herself' - crock of s**t but what can one do. Since leaving she has stayed over once (though nothing happened than a few cuddles.) We had a few disagreements (as can be imagined) and a few instances where our paths would cross and physically (like on a train or something.) In addition, this girl has always suffered from depression. I wonder if it clouded her judgement... Since leaving to I know she has been doing drugs, something which I despise and I find a failing of character especially when she herself told me that she had grown up and would not do it again. I know that she has been vilifying me saying I am a racist to friends (I went out with a black girl for 14 months...and we were talking about kids) but I think this is so as to justify herself. I had not heard from her for 3 weeks - and I actively did not attempt to contact her at all. I sent one sms about two weeks ago when I was drunk sayng I miss you and she relied wanting to meet up. All this time too I have been dating other women - I have gone out with say 12 other women on dates and now have alot of single online women (god bless internet dating ) Well, my dilema is this. I know I still have feelings for this girl. On Tuesdday she smsed me asking to meet up and watch this movie called Malunde. We are both South African descent and it is set in South Africa. It invlolves a white South African (like me) travelling from Johanessburg (where I originated from) travelling to Cape Town (where my ex was born). He has two kids from an over marriage (like me) and along the way meets a colored girl (like my ex) and they get together. They see a child that my ex acknowledge as late as yesterday looks like what our child would look like. I ignored the original message. SHe smsed me she had this movie again on Wednesday saying 'did you get my message?. Do you want to meet up and see it' I said I did not know wghat I want and that I still want more than a friendship. I thought that if she heard that she might lay off. But no. She did not dismiss it at all. Thursday I hear what I definetely did not want to hear - she has a job at my workplace. So know I have to have regular contact with her. I was on a date when I got the sms and again I ignored it. Anyhow yesterday (Fri) she rings me. She tells me she wants to watch the movie as it is 'special for both of us.' And then she gives me a few questions like 'are you seeing anyone romantically?' and 'have you slept with anyone?' and 'have you kissed anyone?' I was kind of cold and made it clear that she can contact me if she wants to meet up. I also hit her up with with 'you must be mising me' and she says 'oh, you are really nice to be around.' She then mkes an effort to orgainse a time to catch up - I was deliberately evasive cause I want her to stew. OK, I want another chance... but what do I do now?
Micheal Posted April 10, 2004 Posted April 10, 2004 believe me man if youre working together you'll have plenty of chances.hehe.but serously take it slow if its worth it .it will work,if not you'll have to get over her qiuck since she works with u or it will suk to see her everyday,damn what a double edged sword,everything works out for the best sooner or later,im not an expert just a dude thowing my 2 cents in
Author fishman3226 Posted April 12, 2004 Author Posted April 12, 2004 Well guys whatcha all think I should do? I am deadset scared to goto work. I think it is a combination of not wanting to hear her lies again about how she dont feel it (maybe she is playing ME) and I also dont want to have my hopes dashed again. I know that I still love her but I am not prepared to counter my beliefs to cater from her excesses (ie drugs.) This is a girl who last Friday asked me if i was single, was sleeping with anyone and also had I kissed anyone. She also was asking me if I was weraing a black T-shirt (she always said I looked good dressed like that.) HELP!!
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