whoknowswhattodo Posted May 2, 2011 Posted May 2, 2011 Day 20 nc I'm feeling so she hasn't called or texted me, nothing. I'm in fear and there is so many situations running through my head.
Katt22 Posted May 2, 2011 Posted May 2, 2011 I know exactly how you are feeling. I'm almost a month of nc and not a word from him at all. I know that I should probably be happy that he hasn't contacted me, but it makes me wonder if he misses me at all. Kinda makes me wanna cry sometimes
JasonRules Posted May 2, 2011 Posted May 2, 2011 Day 20 nc I'm feeling so she hasn't called or texted me, nothing. I'm in fear and there is so many situations running through my head. What are you afraid of?
Author whoknowswhattodo Posted May 2, 2011 Author Posted May 2, 2011 What are you afraid of? I'm afraid that she isn't thinking about me. I read GIGS and that described our break up to the point of what she said. I'm staying busy but I miss talking to her and holding her. I miss her. I try and try not to think about it but she was going to be my wife.
missconfused83 Posted May 2, 2011 Posted May 2, 2011 i commend your 20 days of NC!!! im not even finished day 1 yet and i feel like s**t already. you're doing great! if you know its the best thing for you just keep at it and give yourself a pat on the back. the worst thing is to think of what she might be doing though, thats gonna drive you nuts. try to focus on the things you want to do and try to do them! maybe it'll help a bit
Fufu Posted May 3, 2011 Posted May 3, 2011 Be brave and be happy for yourself. 20 days of NC is a great achievement. I believe you are putting in to much focus on her. Time to think about yourself, your life, your career, your family, your future. Let me tell you, I'm pretty sure I'm about months in NC, I don't count my NC days. And, my ex never contacted me at all. However, I don't feel hurt anymore. it's his choice whether he wants to contact me or not, I won't force my feelings and ideas on him. I believe in my choice for letting go and seeking NC to heal myself completely.
Author whoknowswhattodo Posted May 3, 2011 Author Posted May 3, 2011 Be brave and be happy for yourself. 20 days of NC is a great achievement. I believe you are putting in to much focus on her. Time to think about yourself, your life, your career, your family, your future. Let me tell you, I'm pretty sure I'm about months in NC, I don't count my NC days. And, my ex never contacted me at all. However, I don't feel hurt anymore. it's his choice whether he wants to contact me or not, I won't force my feelings and ideas on him. I believe in my choice for letting go and seeking NC to heal myself completely. I understand I shouldn't but for some reason I do. I don't talk about her to anyone except a close business partner who lives in another state. I'm acting like I don't care anymore but I feel people can see right through me. I'm trying my best and I miss her more everyday. What makes it hardest is having to look at the calendar to set up meetings with clients and seeing that day of the week and knowing that's when she left. I can't run away from, I just face it and it makes me sad. I try not to get to emotional and that has gotten better. But the feeling of my other half is gone is still there and it crushes me. I don't show it but it does. I know one day she will look back and say "man I fu*ked up. Why did I do that?". I just hope it happens soon and she comes back. I'm a nice guy and I'm not going to change that. I just want her and I know I can't make her want me. She has to make that choice. My business partners wife said " your a rich, good looking, and seet guy. Get out there and find some new." But I don't want to and I don't want to give up.
Fufu Posted May 3, 2011 Posted May 3, 2011 I understand I shouldn't but for some reason I do. I don't talk about her to anyone except a close business partner who lives in another state. I'm acting like I don't care anymore but I feel people can see right through me. I'm trying my best and I miss her more everyday. What makes it hardest is having to look at the calendar to set up meetings with clients and seeing that day of the week and knowing that's when she left. I can't run away from, I just face it and it makes me sad. I try not to get to emotional and that has gotten better. But the feeling of my other half is gone is still there and it crushes me. I don't show it but it does. I know one day she will look back and say "man I fu*ked up. Why did I do that?". I just hope it happens soon and she comes back. I'm a nice guy and I'm not going to change that. I just want her and I know I can't make her want me. She has to make that choice. My business partners wife said " your a rich, good looking, and seet guy. Get out there and find some new." But I don't want to and I don't want to give up. You have to let go, read your post again and again. Is this who you want to be for yourself? Break up hurts, we all felt that and experienced that. However, you can't let what hurt you get into you for too long. If you refuse to move on, in the end, you are the one hurting yourself. If you still stuck in the past and focus all your energy on her daily, why not think of, "What have I not done enough to help myself to let go and move on?"
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