ChaseYng2005 Posted May 1, 2011 Posted May 1, 2011 As a long time member of this forum, I know sometimes it's best to sum it up. 1) Met Feb 2009, fell in love soon 2) Was going great but found out he was cheating Summer of 2009 3) He begs me to stay and I do, but I can't get over it 4) He left me alone on xmas day and I spent it with another guy. I kissed that guy. 5) He cheated on me with an ex and almost gave me HIV around Valentines dat of 2010. Luckily we are negative. 6) We break up July of 2010. He dates other people. I died. 7) He wants me back fall of 2010 but can't commit. 8) We get closer the winter of 2010. 9) We both go to Germany Dec 2010 and I feel ignored so I meet another guy and we are enamored by each other. 10) Feb of 2011, fed up with his inability to commit to me, I decide to move to Germany to be with the guy. 11) He begs, cries, and pleads for me to stay. Starts talking about suicide. I stay and help him get his life together. 12) I think about Germany often, but I love him and stay and build a life together. 13) April 16th, 2011 - We celebrate my b-day. His mom bakes me a cake. His relatives wish and sing me a happy b-day. We go one to have two wonderful movie nights together. I think about sleeping with him for the first time in ages. 14) One week later I find out he's spending time with another. He dumps me citing no communication, failure to acknowledge and apologize for my mistakes, no sex or intimacy, and lack of thing in common. 15 - I'm angry and very hurt. I feel like my life here has lost all meaning so I'm preparing to drop everything and move to Germany in 3 days. My stuff isn't even all the way out of his house. In my anger I've become bitter. I stripped his house of everything I ever bought him and cut the cords to them. Breaking up with him was the right thing to do. But I'm torn on the Germany thing. Moving there would take away so much pain and give life and adventure to my blue universe. I'm running so fast that I'm dropping my job, and everything. I feel like a hobo hauling stuff around in my car and living in a hotel because it hurts to bad to go home. He says it still is my home but WTF, I can't stay there with all that's between us and him bringing his new beau over. And he lives in constant fear that I'll hurt him, shoot him, or use info I have against him. What's the worse case scenario that could happen here?
Movingthrough Posted May 2, 2011 Posted May 2, 2011 Moving there would take away so much pain and give life and adventure to my blue universe. Be careful because i dont think moving will just solve all the problems, i did something similar (not overseas) and the issues were still there. Easier said then done but i would find your own place, your own time, and try to move on here. To just move on to something overseas to run from this is not good and most likely wont fix anything.
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