I broke up with my clingy, creepy, stalker ex-boyfriend, but i miss him to death!!

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my boyfriend of 7 months had broken up with me. then he asked for me back, so i said yes. he told me he loved me after we got back together and i didnt really feel like i was in love with him. about a week later he texted me saying "i dont love you, i love my previous girlfriend and another girl more than i love you."

 

i was devastated. i couldn't believe he said that. so a month went by. he was in another country and when he came back he was going back to the college he goes to. ironically, my brother goes to the same college. for my spring break, i went to visit my brother for the week so i could party and stuff. after not speaking to my ex for a month, he texted me as soon as i got up to the college.

 

of course i answered, like a dumbass. now after this, we were texting every day again. i was happy to be talking to him, but now it was becoming weird. he was very co-dependent, needy, clingy and quite stalkerish. he always needed to know where i was since we were always separated (his college is 6 hours away from where we live) and he would always be really creepy and clingy and thats SUCH a turnoff for me. also he would always tell me how much he loves me, but i didnt think i felt the same way. my family wanted a restraining order because the stalking got so bad, but i couldnt stop talking to him. he meant so much to me!

 

one day was the final straw. i couldn't take it anymore so i ended it with him. we were supposed to be together for the whole summer, but i told him that it wasnt gonna work between us. i was so happy to be done with it! but now 3 weeks later... i cry myself to sleep every night. i want to text him so badly. hes now in my town home from college and knowing that he's here but i cant see him kills me. i miss him to death. i dont think i can handle it!

 

i dont know what to do. he's crazy, but i finally realize that im in love with him. i cant stop thinking about him and i miss and love him so much. i know i shouldn't initiate conversation but i just want to know if he's thinking of me! should i text? or is he too crazy for me to get involved with again? please help me. any opinions will help!