satinlove Posted April 29, 2011 Posted April 29, 2011 I really don't know where to begin. it's an old story and as i searched the net i found many people who go through the situation that i am in. sadly, none of these people have a timeline like mine. so i decided to ask a few questions here based on incidence from my past. when i was 23, i was in a relationship with this guy who was 20 years old then. we were together for almost a year. we broke up because he had to go to another country and i couldn't tag along. you see, i had some plans of my own but at that time i was so torn between him and my plans that i didn't take the break up too well. i had too many things going against me. so finally after five years he comes to the town where i live in. he said he came visiting his friends and family and in the process asked me to catch up with him. in these five years our conversations have been very limited. mostly, smalltalks and pleasantries. so, he sent an email on a social network site telling me that he was in town and would love to catch up if i was around, and he gave me his number. so i called and we decided to meet for coffee. of course, when i called him i asked if he was free and had the time to catch up. so, he said of course he did and that he wasn't going anywhere without meeting me. so, we decided to meet at a coffee place. we talked about our lives in general. in that conversation he told me how he had changed. in the process, i asked him if i was very demanding because my current relationship is in the dumpsters. he told me that there was nothing wrong with me and the problem was he, himself. he also, added that he was an idiot to break up with me. i didn't reply then but we went on to a pub to grab a drink. so, i asked him why did he change because he was harping on it. he said that he changed due to a lot of break ups and that he didn't have any regrets. at that point i should have asked him what he meant by that but i didn't. anyhow, we parted that evening. on the way to his place he asked me if i wanted to join him and his friends to their gathering and i politely refused saying that i wasn't well. he had offered that when i had initially called to make our appointment (or whatever) and i had declined then too. the next day i had sent a message asking him to catch up before he left. instead, he kept calling on the pretext of getting some weed over. i told him i would see if i could manage somebody to drop it off at his place and then he was like "no, don't send it over! i want to smoke up with you." i said k and i go meet him. well, i forgot to take the weed with me but anyhow they accomodated me with their evening plans. i went to a discotheque with his two other friends and hung out. of course, we parted again for good but it was really strange. i felt as if there were so many things unsaid and unfinished. he hasn't connected with me since. but thats probably because of the indifference i showed him. esp. when he said things like "i am checking you out smoking." these things came out of the blue and was really strange. another thing that really struck me was when i was at the pub with him where while talking about something he rubbed his forefinger across my mouth. i know probably he was flirting but do you think he may want me back? or feel something for me? or, is this just nostalgia and i am making a mountain out of a molehill?
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