reallyconfused2542 Posted April 29, 2011 Posted April 29, 2011 well its the third day of NC and last night i went to bed feeling a little better and this morning i woke up with that huge pit feeling in my stomach. you know the one where your stomach is growling and hurts but its not food you need. its that longing feeling of wishing they were there with you. maybe feeling a touch better at night is a good thing and that will start to feel better in the morning to. i think it might just be that feeling waking up that now i have to go through a whole new day wanting and wishing to contact them. a whole new day of ideas that my brain will concoct to try and bring them back to me. the truth probably is that there never coming back but i cant accept that yet. i can almost bet she's not doing the same thing as me, the not eating, feeling crappy, but when she lays her head down at night i wonder if she thinks about those thing and if they upset her. i wonder if she misses feeling me beside her or waking up next to me. obviously not that much otherwise she wouldn't have left. this weekend should be good for me, ill be going out with friends to bars and some clubs. i just wonder if ill be sitting there the whole time wishing i was with her. its gong to be hard because in all honesty ive been to all those places before and i feel like l never had as good of a time as when i went with her. she brought out something good in me, a different kind of happiness that i experienced with anyone else. so while its going to be fun it'll also be tough. maybe i just have to find out why i as happy when i was there with her and just try and apply it with my life. this is going to be hard yet fun. on a good yet bad note her numbers out of my phone so there will be no drunk txts or anything like that and i wont be able to contact her even if i wanted to until sunday. be then it will be five days on NC that will be finished. i just hope that i feel better instead of worse
justagirrl Posted April 29, 2011 Posted April 29, 2011 yes! no drunk texts/calls this weekend. maybe after 5 this will become even easier. as the number increases, the easier? ..i guess we'll find out. I'm attempting to go out with friends this weekend. I did this before when I was hurting and just ended up thinking about him the whole time, and when I got home, completely broke down. Best thing to do, get her out of your head! Don't think about it when you're out, enjoy your time out!
ilovedhim Posted April 29, 2011 Posted April 29, 2011 and dont get drunk and start talking about your ex to friends. try to keep her out of your mind. sunday night i got drunk ran to the restroom to cry and some woman asked if i needed help that she knew i was hurting. for the rest of the night i couldnt talk about anything but him. not fun for the people around us.
Author reallyconfused2542 Posted April 29, 2011 Author Posted April 29, 2011 haha thanks, my friends would just tell me to shut up, its a bachelor party, i know they don't want to hear about it. im not a heavy drinker anyway so i don't think ill get to that point
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