Timmeh Posted April 21, 2011 Posted April 21, 2011 (edited) My SO's financial situation is getting me down. It's a weird feeling, because on one hand I feel very excited and happy for her, yet on the other hand I feel deeply depressed with my own situation. Recently she was working as a sells associate for a little above minimum wage. While she just recently graduated college with an art major, it obviously didn't help her find work. About a month and a half ago she was unhappy with the long hours and low pay so she quit, and searched for greener grass. She ended up finding that greener grass on the other side. She went from making $15,000 a year to making a little over $50,000. When I heard the news I almost felt a high because when I see my girl smile from the bottom of her heart it feels me with a gleeful joy. I took her out to dinner and spent the last of what little money I had to celebrate. When I got home I came to the realization of my own situation. I'm self employed as a guitar teacher and I make only $7,000 a year. I have been trying to find a job but to no avail. I have even been rejected by McDonalds. Personal problems forced me to lose financial aid and drop out of college for at least 6 months. I'm sitting here jobless, penniless, and living at my parents house, I don't even have a car. My life is at a virtual stand still. Needless to say I'm feeling very insecure right now. It's not that I envy her... it's that I feel I'm now a burden. I've always insisted on paying for my girlfriend. It's always a race to see who gets to the cheque first. If there is one thing I can't stand is feeling like a burden, the feeling of holding somebody back. To make the situation worse I'm only 20 years old and she is 23. Despite having an amazing relationship I wonder how long she'll wait for me to get on my feet. (We've only been going out for 6 months, but we have known each other for a year and a half.) As a side note she is not materialistic, she is very down to earth. She thrilled even doing mundane things with me such as taking long walks. Also she still lives at her parents herself. Are my concerns valid? Edited April 21, 2011 by Timmeh
Author Timmeh Posted April 21, 2011 Author Posted April 21, 2011 Is it a good idea to verbalize my concerns? She just got the job and it could come of as me being unsupportive.
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