Is he still in love with is ex girlfriend or do stay with him?

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[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]I am 26 years old I have been with my bf now , ( whom is 32) for almost a year in which in this time we have had a very platonic relationship due to an ongoing issue between us with trust.. Early on in the relationship my partner worked in FIFO mines so it was not a normal or easy relationship to start off with and he had already planned and payed for a trip around the world with a friend of his so we were both jumping in head in quite early considering the circumstances. However we decided to commit to each other and a month before he was to leave I moved to his place in his family’s home met all his family and friends before he left. It was great, we really loved each other until his ex gf came into the picture. He had recently rekindled a very close relationship with her, as they used to date when they were 16 and she cheated on him and only in last few months before meeting me had they gotten back in contact. He suffers from anxiety an depression as does she so they had a lot in common and could relate to each other.[/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]However, there relationship was very intense. The way in which they communicate was texts message and emails saying I love, cant tait to see you, xx 00. Whic is fine as some people have those types of relationship but my suspicion and gut instinct started flaring when I was tole more by my bf describing how good of friends they are as they used to share bed s when he came off the mines sites and stay in his hotel and cuddle. [/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]I mentioned this made me uncomfortable especially after I read his phone seeing the way the spoke to each other so he arranged to have us all meet the night before he left for his round the world trip. The moment came to that night and she pulled out causing a fuss saying she didn’t want to come out as she didn’t want to make me uncomfortable, which made me feel angry as why would a good friend of his make me uncomfortable, then later that evening, he then said he was going to go see her oh his own as she must of had a fight with her bf , I go upset as he was leaving me on our last night together to go see this person. He then called her and she said she doesn’t want to come as she doesn’t like him having a gf as hell give her less time. I hit the roof and broke it off with him as it wasn’t fair, something is going on. He then got angry at me and we had a big fight, he left me outside the hotel with my bags with no money to go out an drink with his guy mates.[/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]I flew back home to nz then talked to him the next day, there was no apology, he was saying to forget everything. it was nothing[/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]I said I will be fine if he cools it with this girls as it’s not fair on me, as its showing me she still has feelings for you, do something about it. A few weeks later he flew e over to London to finish the trip with him and I read some of his email and he was still contacting her just the same as before. He had ignored what I had asked him to-do and when I asked him if they had been in contact he said only to invite her to his cousin bday party, which was a lie, so he was now lying to me about her. I told him I had seen the emails all hell broke loose. [/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]He stopped talking to her for while to show me I was more important, we had a counselling session but it didn’t go well as it was only an hour and not much can really abate from that, he has also told her how they communicate has to stop and that when she chose not to come meet me that night it caused massive dramas as someone who doesn’t want to meet his gf would be assumed to have feeling s for him as she doesn’t like him seeing her with someone else. She replied and explained but to me saying she didn’t come because she didn’t want to spend her last night with him with someone she didn’t know is not good enough and far to expecting of “friend “.[/sIZE][/FONT]

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[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]This has caused me massive amounts of grief as I feel that my bf still in love with this girl. He seems to let her get away with alot and their relationship is just to much for just friendship. It is complicated as she tried to kill herself when she was younger and was abused by her father, she is pretty messed up and my bf tried to take care of her I think but I am struggling to let go of everything that’s happened and move on, as a part of me feels that there is more to it and it hurts as I love him with all my heart but I don’t want give my love to someone who might very well be in love with his ex still. He says he’s not but actions continue to show that there is something more to it. He is now back in contact with her as well.[/sIZE][/FONT]

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[FONT=Calibri][sIZE=3]What do I do from here.??[/sIZE][/FONT]