Don't know what to think still

[Ana_130]

My now ex boyfriend and I broke up a little over two weeks ago and I still can't stop thinking about him. It probably doesn't help that he is in almost all of my college classes with me and also lives down the hall from me, but I think there is more to my problem. So, my ex broke up with me because he said he doesn't think he could ever love me. Here's my problem with the whole reasoning, we were great together. Even that day we were happy and holding hands and kissing each other good bye when we parted for a little bit. Nothing seemed wrong. Also, I was his first girlfriend ever. I'm not sure if he knows what love really is. We were only coming up 4 months of dating when we broke up, so I didn't expect him to say I love you anytime soon. I wanted to say it to him, but I never found the right time to say it. I know he still cares about me because a couple of days after we broke up I had to go home for a couple of days because I was diagnosed with mono. When I was well enough to come back to school I apparently ate something that didn't settle well and that night I was throwing up. With my roommate not caring about my well being in the bathroom I texted my ex hoping he would come and help me because I was shakey and scared and couldn't get off the floor. He was really nice and came and sat with me in the bathroom for an hour (this was like 1 AM) and rubbed my back and cooled me down with an ice pack and cleaned my bathroom and picked me up and put me back in my bed. No ex does that without still really caring about that person. He did tell me that he was thinking about getting back together while I was home sick, but felt his decision was the right one. Absolutely everyone, even both our parents, want us back together. He still really wants to be friends, but I still want him to be mine. I just think he is really confused because he still acts like he cares about me and I still care about him. Since I'm still recovering from mono he has told me he is more than willing to help me anyway he can like if I need a ride somewhere or if I need him to just pick up some boxes. I will admit we had slept together numerous times (even two nights before we broke up and he was really happy I spent the night with him) and I've considered that because we were that far with our relationship that that's why I can't get over him, but I think there is more to that. I just wish he would stop being so stubborn and hard on himself (which he is a lot) and give us another chance.