Emperorr NC coping LOG

[EmperorR]

Might as well start one of these days

 

last contact was made February 24, told her after more than a year since she dumped me I no longer wanted to talk to her anymore or her to have contact with my family.

 

She flared up called me every name in the book, called me bipolar etc., kept my cool thankfully. Anyways almost 2 months has passed, every day I wake up she is the first thing on my mind and i consistently think of her and her son ugh.

 

My parents and sister still communicate with her, I just gave up in that regard as they can do what they want I have to do what's best for me.

 

She hasn't attempted to contact me, my sister told me how she text her and she said she wishes I get over whatever issues I have with her and talks to her this was like a month ago.

 

Eh I know the rules, how the game is played I know I will get over this, it just sucks, and to make it even worse a nice lady I was talking to spending time with has ignored me for the past 7 days, Ic an't really blame her as I'm not over my ex and I guess I was negative in retrospect, and plus I think its good for me to be alone at this time.

 

I even signed up for pof and what do you know the very next day she found me, which led to me googlign her username which sucked even worse for me:(

 

My life at the moment just consists of work coming home, going for a walk, listening to music and watching a movie every night, I just want to contact her ugh and see how she's doing and her son, but yet I remain NC, maybe NC for life:(, been through this twice since 2008 so I know how it goes, I've never contacted my previous two exes but this time it feels so different I guess because of her son:(.

 

 

 

 

day 48 shakes

[EmperorR]

day 49, like a idiot i checked her fb page, why did I do this?

 

because i'm a idiot and felt so weak today, all day at work she was on my mind UGH, of course she had to put her status 95 msgs in one day at her local dating site, it's like she knew I would check her fb today.

 

hate myself for this I know this is semi breaking no contact but I will not do it again. I wish i could just ff to liie 4 months from now where she will be out of my head

[Duckduckgoose]

So she's bragging cause ugly desperate internet dudes are hitting on her?

 

And she's on a dating site? So soon after a break up? I feel sorry for the kid because when the parents have a revolving door of partners it really confuses the child.

 

She's doing it for the ego boost I imagine... I know I did I seriously didn't want to date just wanted some validiation is all.

 

Keep your NC. Let her fall into the mire of stupidity, you stay out of it!