Starsky_182 Posted April 13, 2011 Posted April 13, 2011 (edited) Hi people, I recently split with my girlfriend, someone who i thought i finally felt something for. Unfortunately to cut a long story short she had many issues as she had never met her father and she seemed to direct a lot of these towards me. Im a big softy in relationships and i tried my best with her. She tried to change me - almost suceeding, she wouldnt let me wear certain clothes, got me to grow a beard, tried to stop me seeing certain friends and so on. Im not going to bore you with all the ins and outs lets just say she treated me like crap a lot of the time, and dropped me as and when she felt like, however she told me she loved me, this is after i told her i had never told anyone i loved them as i feel it is something that you shuld only say when you truly mean it...with her i felt like i had something there regardless of the bad times...when it was good it was good. The straw that broke the camels back was one night when we were supposed to have dinner together, she gave me the time etc i was to be at hers for 830pm so planned my whole day around her, 830 arrived i was ready about to leave, she called me seemingly oblivious to her earlier plans asking what i was up to? When i reminded her that i was en route to hers for tea she replied.....oh well im off for a run now ill ring you back...30mins passed no call, she couldnt care less about me, i wanted a nice evening with her and she would rather go for a run! Basically i lost it as this was one of many incidents where i just appeared worthless to her....i finished it for the second time. (might seem trivial but its hard to explain the whole situation properly here :-/ Problem im having now is i cant stop thinking about her its driving me insane, i dont know if its because she told me she loved me or what im usually quite level headed and can pick myself up but ive been down for a while and just as i start picking myself up she will send me a random msg (event though ive deleted her on facebook and her mobile number) the other day she was telling me shed dreamt about me?! On top of all this after a week i heard she was already in another relationship - amazing how much that hurt even though i finished things! I know im just ranting but i just wanted to get this off my chest - i dont get how she can walk into another relationship, i feel sick at the thought of it and couldnt think of anything worse than another relationship. I have ZERO interest in relationships now. Edited April 13, 2011 by Starsky_182
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