Steven T Posted April 12, 2011 Posted April 12, 2011 I let my first love go not too long ago. She was my best friend and was basically good as gold, she never did anything wrong in our 3 year relationship and did everything to please me. She was kind, caring, trustworthy, beautiful, funny. She was perfect, my soul mate. I was a very controlling boyfriend and didnt treat her as good as I could have. So I let her go to be happy and live her life, as I didnt want to upset her anymore. How do I live with myself? I regret the way I behaved and it's now beginning to sink in that shes gone. I wish I could of treated her better, I am finding it hard to live my life. I was fine a few days ago, but now it's really getting to me.
brokendreamz Posted April 12, 2011 Posted April 12, 2011 Mate, I could have written that. It's unbelievably hard when you realise that it's all your fault. The old saying of 'You don't know what you've got till it's gone' couldn't be more apt. I wish I could let my ex go and live a beautiful life but we have a house to sell and that keeps us in contact. Whenever we discuss the sale I end up trying to talk her into trying again which upsets her and breaks me all over again. I'm 3 months out and have sought therapy and pills from the doc which seem to be kicking in now. I'm hitting the gym every day and I'm about to go away for a couple of weeks and hope that will aid some sort of recovery. At the end of the day what has happened happened. Unless they give us another chance there's sweet fa we can do except try to learn one of the hardest lessons of life and move forward knowing we'll never make the same mistake again. They say everything happens for a reason and who knows what's round the corner - did you see yourself in this situation 12 moaths ago? Who knows where we'll be in another 12. Life is a journey, we just hit a big traffic jam and all we can do is wait out the pain and hope to become better men for it. Good luck mate.
Strength of Heart Posted April 12, 2011 Posted April 12, 2011 I'm in the same situation my friend, stay strong.
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