rhonian Posted April 12, 2011 Posted April 12, 2011 to know what she is thinking! -I want the satisfaction of knowing that she feels the same loneliness as I do. -I want to know what is going thru her mind. -I want the closure that we didnt get when I packed up and left. -I want to know her reasons for wanting to end things. I want to know if there was anything I could of done to save it. -I want to know if I was the one that she loved the most, like she said. -I want to know if her stubborn ego is stopping her from contacting me. -I want to know if she really thinks that eventually I will breakdown and contact her like I did so many times in the past. -I want to know her regrets. Iam going thru the whole gammet of emotions trying to convince myself it was the best thing and we would of never made it and missing her like crazy at the same time. Why would I miss... 1. Her control 2. Her "taking" behavior 3. Her lack of affection 4. Her do as I say not as I do 5. Her perfect child 6. Her perfect outside but chaotic inside 7. Her lack of trust 8. Her religious views 9. Her political views 10. Her always right attitude 11. Her inability to take blame 12. Her inabliity to say IM SORRY .....idunno, I just do. I cant/wont contact her 1st....NOT because of stubborness/ego but merely for principle. She told me to leave over me not walking the dog. Obviously, there were other things spinning in her mind to blow-up like that and never contact me again (2 weeks). I just wish I knew the whole story but for some reason I dont think I ever will. Goodbye, baby,
Sake Posted April 12, 2011 Posted April 12, 2011 I remember going through that feeling. I thought it would never end and sadly it only JUST ended for me. The truth is you'll never know and the saddest truth is females rarely ever return if they're the dumper, the earlier you accept these harsh truths the earlier you'll wake up one day and for some reason not care about her, what shes thinking or any of the above you've listed. You'll just stop caring about everything but it takes time and don't get obsessed over it, it will only drive you more insane, I know how you feel. My ex of 3 years broke up with me before last summer started and got a new bf a month later, its been almost 10 months and they're still together. The feeling passes. P.S females generally don't feel as lonely as men as they can easily replace a man and/or have several guys in line.
Author rhonian Posted April 12, 2011 Author Posted April 12, 2011 Glad to know someone else has been there, Sake. I have a feeling there are millions more out there. When Iam in a relationship, I constantly do specific things that will force my girlfriend to remember me better, things that separate me from any relationship that she has ever been in. Little things....that are just between us. I had so many of these "little things" with her. I would pay attention to her past relationships and be sure to not repeat the "other's" mistakes and really use their mistakes to my advantage. I try so hard to be MEMORABLE and UNFORGETTABLE! From the way we were intimate to vacuuming her house to washing her clothes to making words out of car license plates that we saw driving down the road. I would also pay attention to what she would say after during and after a fight and silence. She would say that the "silence was deafening"...SHE HATED IT! So, if I had to bet money, I would say that she has drained herself with thoughts of us and is not very happy right now. I just want to know it, I want proof! It would make me feel so much better.....
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