consensus

[Tyson7]

Concensus: I’m not sure if she’s ready to be in a relationship. It seems as though she’s very hesitant and she’s not opening up to me very much. According to her I expect too much, seriously? In what way? I would like to actually talk on the phone, see each other outside of the hospital, and just have more serious conversations. She says she likes me, but she talks to her ex and begins to tell me that she’s going to see him the next day to finally end things with him. Why this got me extremely upset, well I’m starting to really get feelings for this girl and to hear that she’s going to see someone who’s treated her bad really put me in a bad mood. Considering I’m trying to work things out with her to possibly build a relationship, it’s not fair for her to bring baggage like this so early. It’s almost destined not to workout, at least that’s how I’m feeling. I almost feel as though I’m forcing this to work, which puts my stomach into knots. There’s no reason I should be feeling these sort of emotions for her. It’s so early in our friendship, I hardly know her, and for crying out loud I’m not one to fall for a girl so hard! I’ve wanted to give up on her many times, I’ve told her that. Simply call it quits, delete her out of my life, and continue living the happy filled single life I’m accustomed to. Where do I go from here after pouring my heart out to her? We had a real serious conversation last night. Probably doesn’t mean anything. I have to go now; gona do my best to rid myself of these emotions.

 

I feel stupid for letting my feelings run wild.

I feel stupid that she doesn’t have the time of day to text me at least once

I feel stupid that I let her see an emotional side of me

I feel stupid that I let myself be vulnerable

I feel stupid for trying to make something work that I know is going to end in heartbreak