3 weeks nc , why r my thoughts beggining to attack me? shouldnt i be getting better ?

[WiselyNaive]

friday makes 3 weeks nc......i only have 2 frames of minds right now..im either rlly sad or really mellow..i cant even figure it out....im scared because the more time passes the more negative thoughts enter my head...i dont know if its over thinking..or if small pieces of info ive been getting r let me look at things different ...ive gotten to the point where i believe my ex plotted this entire relationship to hurt me,...i now believe he manipulated me and planned getting with me just to hurt me on purpose for rejecting him in the past...when i say this aloud i sound paranoid..but i really believe it ..:S...& now i dont even know if im doing this to myself or not...

 

the thing is...i seem to be getting worst instead of better..my thoughts about it r becoming harsher....where in reality the ex i knew is probably crying over this more than i am...but the ex i began to see post break up is someone completely different i dont even kno which is the real him....is this the real him & he put on an act to be with me?...or is this the act?..

 

we broke up over somethin so dumb...all he had to do was say sorry or ask me what was wrong & im sure it wouldnt have escalated, instead it turned into this...even if we dont get back...he knows hes wrong....if this dude just apologized or admit he is wrong id probably be a happy ****ing camper right now -.-

[EmperorR]

it takes time, first few days are the hardest but then there are also good days and bad days when you relapse I'm like 40 days NC now wiht my ex and some days I feel like contacting her but then I don't its a cycle until one day you kick the habit for real.

 

 

there is really no timeframe, it all depends on your situation etc., just try to keep busy and stop overanalyzing we are all powerless to what our exes do and think, can only control our own thoughts.