whoknows99 Posted April 6, 2011 Posted April 6, 2011 Briefly... We were together for 5 months and had an "uh oh". Both of us already had kids. Things were great up to that point. Then the pressure mounted and began to cause problems due to fear, stress, etc. Both of us told each other we didn't believe in the "A". So from that point it seemed like we were going to do it. Go through the whole thing. Couple days before the ultrasound she said she just couldnt do it. For various reasons. This really tore me up and I just couldn't continue the relationship anymore. I felt like this was a terrible blow. And how could we recover. So I broke it off. Of course this caused alot of negativity and things said "kitchen sink" type stuff. But after all that I left things as is and didn't contact her. For the last 5 months... Every 30 days... I will get a message from her. Asking how things are... I started out with responding with normal things and didn't go any further. I left it brief and to the point. But last month I did something different. For the past 5 months I have had this feeling of regret and wasn't sure how to handle it. I decided that if she were to contact me again I would apologize for anything that may have happened and to let things go. Even if I wasnt wrong I still just wanted to tell her I didn't think anything less of her and that things happen for a reason but we are both better from the whole relationship. And we really are. So I told her this stuff and of course it brought back some things for her and she at first wasn't happy with this. Of course she blamed me for things but also said she was to blame as well. In the past with negative energy around us it would get ugly verbally. This time we both just said our peace and left it be. Another 30 days go by and I get another message. Same ole same how have you been. Except now we don't have any built up things to say. Its kinda like we both moved passed it all and were just chatting as if we were friends. The content of the messages were more in depth. Personal things and we both fed off of each other. Now I can tell you all that there was only 2 women that I had strong emotions for. She is one of them. I have no idea what my feelings are if we were to even attempt to get back together. But... curiosity kills the cat and you can call me Tom! I'm wondering what she is thinking and wants. Just based on what I have wrote - does anyone think she is trying to slowly get back in? Tell me your thoughts.
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