butterfly2011 Posted April 5, 2011 Posted April 5, 2011 First day of NC, left my phone at home so I wouldnt use it..... but was thinking about it all day.. argghhh So I get home turn it on and no texts from him. And as far as I know he didn't come by the house either. changed locks last nite cause he had been coming over when I was at work, eating my food and taking my snacks... not that he couldnt have them but if you dont want to be with me dont come in my house. It has been OUR house for the past 8 months. Wednesday it will be two weeks. I love him miss him and not sure if I would take him back after the way he has been treating me. Its immature and hurtful. As far as I am concerned , adults work things out if they want to be together. He keeps saying he wants to work things out but so far just words. So I decided to leave it alone and get healthy. I will leave my phone at home again tomorrow too or maybe in the car. Just trying to build my strength and yes trying to get him to miss me. If he doesnt , o=well, I will be healthier by taking the NC challenge. Feeling sad and feeling really defeated tonight. I have had anxiety all day just to get back to my phone..... shaking my head at myself. One day down....... oh and I ate two meals so far today.
Fufu Posted April 5, 2011 Posted April 5, 2011 Sweet, the initial stage of NC was horrible for me as well, always questioning why he didn't message me, why didn't he contact me. However, as days went by, I felt more comfortable he didn't message me at all because if he did, I wouldn't know what to respond and I can feel he won't be saying any thing that I want to hear so I begin to accept that him not contacting me will be better than if he did. You are not being defeated, you are only being heartbroken. My ex-bf also refused to even work things out with me, not even once and then I told myself, I deserve someone who is willing to go through any obstacles in life with me and not someone who met problems, leave me there and runaway himself. Happy for you that you are eating, Keep it up It does get better and better, if you ever need any kind of support, feel free to pm me
Mov Posted April 5, 2011 Posted April 5, 2011 i am also on first day of NC. The urge to call and think i can put things right is still there, but she knows my number and how to contact me, so i have to leave it to her. I have butterflies in my stomach thinking about her but i know any attempt to contact will be bad - she has expressed a desire to not be with me i have to respect that as i respected her opinions when we were seeing each other. The last communication between us i agreed (didnt want to) that splitting up was probably for the best we needed space. If she misses me she will call, if she doesn't then i have to get the idea in my head that why should i miss someone that doesn't miss me.. Its is really difficult i know - hang in there!!
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