Kristie16 Posted April 4, 2011 Posted April 4, 2011 So I first broke up with my first serious boyfriend of about a year at the end of February. I started second guessing the decision. I really loved him, but we are just too different in terms of life goals. My entry about dumper's regret here. I moved about two hours away and started a temporary job assignment, which I really dislike. it made me miss him even more. After two weeks I contacted him. We re-connected at a party the beginning of March and decided to give things another go. I knew it couldn't be long term (as in marriage) because there are too many fundamental differences. But when I stopped worrying about that and focused more on the fact that I enjoy the here and now with him, I realized I wanted to be with him. I knew he might not agree and turn his back on me. But he seemed excited to give it a go again. I'm still living in another town, so we would text every day and I've seen him about three times in person since re-connecting. His birthday was Friday and we had plans to spend the night together. He even text me Thursday night to see if I was able to spend the night. Friday, just as I'm about to leave to drive the two hours to meet him, he texts me and ends things with me. I had no idea. He said we moved too fast and he missed the three weeks when we were apart and he didn't have to answer to anyone or worry that his actions were hurting someone. He said I became needy and clingy over the last few weeks. I take a little issue with that, but I guess I can see why he thinks I was moving too fast, because I was treating it like we were back together, thinking we were. But if he didn't see it that way, I guess I can understand where he's coming from. He just never said anything. I know it's ultimately for the best that we broke up. It was inevitable. We are too different. I just want time to pass really fast and I get to the point where I feel nothing toward him: no hate, no anger, no sadness, no regret, no remorse, nothing. I want to appreciate what we had but be OK if I see him with another girl going on with his life. I'm doing no contact, not to try to get him back, but because I want to get over him. But I'm still really confused about the whole thing and just upset. I dont want to be angry with him forever, but I am really angry right now. Does that pass eventually? I know we'll see each other at a mutual friend's wedding in July that I'm in, so I have to attend.
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