After 18 months of trying ... it's the end

[JustAGirl27]

Hi everyone!

 

I've been married for nearly two years and after 18 hellish months I think I can safely say that it's over.

 

We had the most amazing relationship and he was my best friend but just seemed to turn into a different person once we were married and has spent more time in his mum's house than he has here.

 

I am just so tired and run down from all the **** I have taken over the course of the marriage. He has a bad addiction which I have tried to support, he left me for three months when I was pregnant, he has been with another women when we were on a break, his mum has given me abuse, he has taken my rings and won't give them back, he has let me down with the kids no end and doesn't pay anything to support them...but after all this I think I would still take him back and believe him if he told me that he'd change.

 

The decision has been taken out of my hands now though and we seem to have made the break.

 

But now I'm facing life as a single mother, knowing that he's out every weekend with girls when I'm in with the kids. I'm so lonely and I dread the weekends and my house is just full of bad memories that have overridden all the good ones.

 

How do I regain strength? How do I stop the lonely feeling? And will I ever find that all-consuming love again?

[linwood]

How do I regain strength? How do I stop the lonely feeling? And will I ever find that all-consuming love again?

 

Love will come again but first you have to get this one out of your life.

 

File for divorce, start doing things for yourself and child, strength will come with each goal reached.

 

Keep busy, get in touch with those friends who have disappeared since you got married.

 

Move forward....

[lapse]

Holy Shmit. He seems like a complete arsehat.

 

I'm sorry you've had to deal with this all of that time. Ouch!

 

I wish you green pastures and warm breezes and lots of strength. You can do whatever you decide is right for you and your child.