MexicanBillBacker Posted April 3, 2011 Posted April 3, 2011 After a very Shakesperean ending to an amazing 2 year relationship I'm ready to get back in the game. The thing is the ending was so awful, that it changed me forever as a person - I don't really know if it changed her, because we haven't had contact for around 7 months. To make a long story short - let's just say there was a little Romeo & Juliet going on...Parents stepped in, we went secret - parents found out and instead of fighting she denied everything, said that I made everything up. It all went so fast, after being in an awesome relationship for 2 years, it all went haywire in less than a month, for external reasons that have nothing to do with us. In the last 6 months or so, I've been fighting to get back to being the guy I used to be. I've made strides - but I still find myself scared ****less of having a relationship...And I don't want to become the next cliche of a heartbroken guy that becomes a ruthless player thanks to some girl. I kind of used to be a player before this girl arrived, and I really don't wanna go back to meaningless hook ups, but right now it just seems that I don't wanna do anything. I just want to focus on my classes and in the gym, and whenever some girl is interested in me no matter how great she is I'm unable to do anything. Right before everything went haywire - her parents stepped in, but we wanted to keep fighting so we went secret. She told me that she was never going to hurt me - and I remember telling her that I loved her and I trusted her. Then all hell broke loose. I kind of want to get back in the game but I find myself wondering if its really worth it, to become so vulnerable - And what if the other person isn't willing to love you as much as you love her, or show the same fight or resolve as yourself.
Hules Posted April 3, 2011 Posted April 3, 2011 Mex, from what you are posting it doesn't sound like you are ready yet. Don't force yourself to date if you don't feel ready. Focus on your classes and gym until you can say to yourself "Right my heart is mended, I can make myself vulnerable again." You are not ready and will end up just getting hurt again. There is no timeline on these things its different for each person just focus on what makes you happy
Author MexicanBillBacker Posted April 4, 2011 Author Posted April 4, 2011 Thanks Hules I'll take that into account, I do have a glaring issue though - I think of all women as blood sucking demons.
mr.dream merchant Posted April 4, 2011 Posted April 4, 2011 Thanks Hules I'll take that into account, I do have a glaring issue though - I think of all women as blood sucking demons. Heh, don't we all my friend?
Hules Posted April 4, 2011 Posted April 4, 2011 Thanks Hules I'll take that into account, I do have a glaring issue though - I think of all women as blood sucking demons. Yeah not unusual after a breakup, I know I usually want very little to do with women after a breakup, you will get over it eventually. Because even though they can be blood sucking demons, they can also be ****ing awesome just focus on doing your own thing for now. You will know when you are ready .
fortyninethousand322 Posted April 4, 2011 Posted April 4, 2011 Just be glad it didn't end the way Romeo and Juliet ended. Now that would have really been a bummer.
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