butterfly2011 Posted March 30, 2011 Posted March 30, 2011 Talking things through helps so much. I am of course understanding where I went wrong in this relationship, and I am also seeing that what is going on now, shouldn't be going on. He is trying to control the situation to his liking. If he wants this relationship to work, he has to meet me half way..... I cannot do all the work. I was able to see him and tell him I was sorry and I loved him, etc etc and he keep putting me off but he will want to come around when he feels good and ready. That kinda sucks but if that is how he if doing it fine..... I talked a little with someone who is going through a bad divorce, well he did 99% of the talking. I'm sure he needed that... And just listening to him, I learned alot about myself and what is acceptable and what is unacceptable in a relationship. I forgot my man needed love, needed acceptance, and needed praise. I FORGOT! HE acts like superman, man of steel... so I thought he was made of steel and didn't need that. Well with that said I am going to go continue the NC because it is what I need to do. Him and I have disrespected each other to the point that it may not be fixable. He thinks I just throw him away at any time and pick him back up when I feel sorry, but what he is not seeing is that he is doing that to me. We both are not perfect, we both have made mistakes, and there are things I want in a relationship that are must haves,....its just me. I am a strong lady and this relationship is trying to make me weak. I won't let it...... I hope we can fix things and I also hope I can treat him the way he deserves and that I can get the same. We have to both be willing. Right now I have to get rid of the anger feelings that I am having from all of this. Pain turns into anger....don't know why but it does.
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