richmarc Posted March 30, 2011 Posted March 30, 2011 i seriously don't know what to do anymore... basically i was dating this girl i met when i 1st got to college like back in 08. man she was the one, she did all the lil things, she love me , she was really shy and sensitive when we first met, you could barely get her to say what was on her mind at the time. although we started in 08 she wasn't like any other chick i dated, it took alot of patience to deal with somethings things that i wanted to change but i love her so much that i tried to look pass them. besides the wonderful memories we have she had a life or death surgery on her back and during the time i assured her everything will be ok and ill be there no matter what. i kept my word while she was in rehab, sent her letters,visit her every month,get books for her, even gave have some when she wasn't suppose to be handled like that at the time. we was together through it all so naturally 2 years went by like it was nothing and i didn't wanna make a big deal outta somethings but it really started to bother me. everytime i wanted to see her, i had to make a move or get her a way to like she was always afraid to ask someone to bring her to me, and outta that 2 years she only stepped in my house one time and the second time she pulled up in my driveway yet, i was always at her house and it wasn't easy round the corner, it is on the other side of town.you would take 2 sometimes 3 buses and still end up walking on foot to her house. and she started to get a little hard to deal with because we was no longer in school together so when she needed surgery she was out and now she there and i'm out. i felt like she didn't wanna be with me anymore based on the way she was acting and i broke up with her dec of 2010, we had a argument and she would not let it go she just kept being a a-hole so when i broke up with her i guess i hurt her feelings but at the time the smart remarks and nonchalantness she was showing, i figured was her. but i was wrong as all out doors she cried for days and days and found a somewhat hate for me, so literally i know i messed up as soon as i did it but i knew she probably didn't wanna say anything to me when it all went down so i gave it 2days and i didn't say anything then i called her back apologized and said lets work it out , and she refused said she didn't want to be with me anymore we could be friends and if not but she sticking to her word. so im thinking like a guy (she b.s-ing) it be over with in a month tops. wrong again now it's about to be 4 months now and before you say what am i doing let me tell you why im confused. im confused because now i need surgery and she still there like a girlfriend and she did get better but she always calling me bay, always saying she love me we even have sex and when we do she seem like she was when everything was great but she doesn't want to be together and its pissing me off because im seeing like if we can do all this whats the point of one min you seem u wanna be with me and the next min u seem like you don't when clearly you still have feelings for me but the questions i ask she never answer and say i'm throwing it in her face. oddly this is the girl i want and its sad to say but i feel stupid for even still being around this long trying to be friends or whatever cause i just want her in my life as something and hopefully itll get right eventually be i think im more hurt cause i was actually faithful and didn't think twice about another woman when i was with her and im being treated like i cheated on her over some words i said in dec that i had a bad day and she wont let it go and i think its immature as hell yet she can be normal when we she each other face to face and lay in my arms once more at night but noone asked me... what's going on and what should i do ??? and is it something im missing maybe only women can relate to?
Fufu Posted March 31, 2011 Posted March 31, 2011 "man she was the one, she did all the lil things," She was the one, she is not the one. Why would you want to be with a person who doesn't want to be with you for real? Are you truly happy in this situation?
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