Playing games?!

[pscw]

Ok, I've got a problem that's making me miserable.

 

I've been in a relationship for 6 years now, which is all but absolutely dead. It's one of those going through the motions type of things. He (Bob) is moving to another state by the beginning of May and we have agreed we can see other people then. (I would like to leave now, but I feel like we'd be on better terms just to wait it out)

 

Bob & I were broken up for a period of 8 months or so (he wanted to see other people) and I dated a few guys...no one I thought was really all that special. One of the guys (Joe) did leave a slight impression on me, but it was an extremely short relationship and I was stupidly still wrapped up with Bob still.

 

A few months after that, while still broken up, I saw Joe again. He made it clear that he was still interested in me and I did sorta feel the spark again. He had a party at his house and I wound up crashing on his couch and he during the night came out and kissed and cuddled with me.

 

Bob found out about it, and even though we weren't dating, he was very angry and all of a sudden wanted to be back together. I had to choose and I just went with the safe route and went back to Bob even though Joe and I had a long discussion and talked of a possible relationship.

 

Two years after that brings us to the present and Joe began calling me and txt messaging me asking me to hang out with him again. Now with feeling fed up with a nowhere relationship, I decided I might as well restart a friendship with the possibility of pursuing a relationship after Bob left. I saw Joe twice, on friendly terms and was really having a good time.

 

Last night, I made the mistake of going out to the bar with Joe and there were some heavy makeout sessions and wound up staying at his apartment. (Just sleeping, but still...) Before we went to sleep, he asked me if I would date him and I said yes. He made me promise over and over and then mumbled something like "you'd better think I'm half as attractive as I think you are" and fell asleep. We'd been having conversation like this forever... So I wake up at 8am and he says he needs to get a shower. I put on my shoes and coat...he doesn't say anything at all, gives me a little hug and closes the door behind me.

 

I know this is a totally complicated situation and I feel absolutely awful about being a cheater. I've just got to make the decision between telling and breaking up with Bob or stop seeing Joe until Bob leaves. But I can't make a decision to see Joe when he sometimes tells me he wants to be with me, and other days won't even talk to me. What's up!?!?

[Sundaymorning]

i have no idea. Maybe just move on. Stop cheating. or something like that.