live_laugh_write Posted March 27, 2011 Posted March 27, 2011 I spent spring break with a group of people from my college building homes for a volunteer project in the south. There were nine of us. I don't say these things easily, but I fell in love with a fellow student. I'm a sophomore and he's a senior getting ready for medical school in the fall. He is legitimately a good guy down to the core. We took jogs and walks along the beach every day and got to know each other. The problem here is that he's going to medical school in another state while I'll be staying at the college another 2 years. He's also thinking of joining the army or air force to help pay for med school so I know he's going to be busy. I want what's best for him and I started backing off a little towards the end of the week. I'm still not 100% sure of how he feels about me, but I heard from a friend on the trip that he didn't think he wanted to start anything before heading to med school. I wanted to save him and myself from a possible heartbreak. While our conversations faded and I found I couldn't look at him anymore the last day, we still walked side by side silently. I had a small breakdown the last night, and went to sit alone at the beach at midnight. He went for a jog, and sat down on a bench a little ways away from me. We saw each other, and he stayed there for a long while. Almost watching over me until my friend came by. He asked about me during our drive back from break to that friend. We were in different cars and his car had a discussion about relationships and such. She told me she was shocked when he asked her how I was doing, figuring he could ask me himself... Later that night when we were back, I got his number and texted him a thank you for showing concern. He never replied. I really want to talk to him about what's going on. I'm absolutely devastated and heartbroken. Of all the men I've dated I've never felt as open, happy, and as safe, as with him. I am sorry I tried to distance myself; I never should have done that... I thought it would be easier, but it seems like it's made it much harder for both of us as he can't speak to me now. Opinions? Advice? I'd really appreciate anything to help me deal with this situation.
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