xsell Posted March 22, 2011 Posted March 22, 2011 i guess to begin with my story i really should start from a begining. first im a guy!, i started a wide friendship with my classmates in elementary school; so for everyone would get an idea i was the A student the smart kid of the class, two other girls were my competition, funny about that one of them became my girlfriend on the fourth grade. i also had a best friend, he was the kind of kid who was/is good at sports but he wasnt really a good student nor behaved good, his dad had money so he was always the kid who showed off, but for some reason apart as we were we were friends. now after the fifth grade i moved i only visited a couple times in junior high, now after graduating high school i went back as i didnt went before as my dad had died and i didnt had nowhere to stay. this time i was 18 so i really didnt care where ill stay but i did finished staying at my friend's house where in there we party i saw my old girlfriend and we all had a good time. a foolish choice that i made i dont regret is that i decided to live there in my old house, with no real family to help me and me being on my late 18ths i moved. first of all i gotta say i met great people there and for the old friendship i used to have were mostly done as we didnt have anything in common except for my old bestfriend and my ex-. gratefully for a while we got back together me and her, we were dating and for me and my friend lets just say he wasnt such a good friend as i was expecting him to be, the way that he treated me or insult me a couple of time really upset me, but i wasnt letting that let a friendship died. as for a few months have passed and things werent going that well for me, i was running out of money but i always had people that helped me and it wasnt until late in march where me and my girlfriend broke up, i was devastating i got drunk with friends nd i remember crying, the next day i wake up with my house halfway destroyed and a giant hangover. but i wasnt letting those things make me move back with my mom, i kept my mind busy as spring break was coming up and i was going with a really good friend and my best friend(at least thats what i thought). once we got there with already all my hopes destroyed i still had my friend who ditch me on spring break on a beach, i luckily wasnt alone i had other friends great people that i met when i moved there, but that didnt matter to me i was going to a bad time and i wanted my old friend but all i got was a jerk, that made me realize nothing really matter and i wasnt going to put up with him ditching on several ocassions, being rude, and loosing a lost love or going thru starvation, and so i leaving some spring break concert with some tears in my eyes i made the decision to move back. after that weekend that i decided to come back home i thought i wasnt going to see him anymore as i wasnt mad but i just didnt want to associate for now with him, but we had a 7.9 earthquake cutting all electricity or running water. me living alone i was made to stay with his family as now they were the closest thing i had for a family, spending a week living with him i told them that i was moving back, at first he seem upset and changed his persona and started to treat me like a friend and by the last night that i spent there he ditch me again! left me in his room while he went to a party. i seriously was hurt. it all hit me everything that i went thru and i couldnt even kept a friendship, i cried so bad i left his house ran to my house at 2 am i didnt care about the aftershocks, i had a breakdown all because of his fault. i woke up hating on him i didnt want to see him anymore, but i had to as i had to go back there. but he wasnt he left town withouth saying goodbye. i said bye to my friends to my ex which im not upset about breaking up with her as were friends were really good friends she's be my best girl-friend. and so i left her and i left my town once again after going thru a depression and chatting with her almost everyday i havent had a word with him he maybe sent me an e-mail twice but i only replied once with a short word "sup". now 8 months later i went back had fun got super drunk nd i hanged with her and some friends, i did saw him three times once when he called me that he and others were waiting for me at his house, and as i went and said hi to everyone except him, i felt weird but it didnt last long as i left, the other time was when he went to see me at his aunt house he said good mornig and she replied but i kept talking to his cousin nd then i left. the third time was at his home talking to his family we didnt spoke neither did he or I. and the final was when i stopped to say hello to his dad. as i felt that maybe that wasnt the way i should of done it but it was right as he deserved it, only for me to find out that, that night he ditch me in his room because at the party he went to was with this guy who actually wanted to kill me (thats another story) anyways i felt bad too bad i didnt see him again as i left the next day. havent spoken to him again, i do gotta say i miss him and it hurts when i think of that friendship we maybe could of had, as im not as angry as i was before knowing what ive just said,i perhaps am over reacting and things should be okay or i should speak to him about it. i still have a feeling that maybe his not the type of friend i should have or in that matter anyone should have, maybe not now maybe his too mean and hopefully he'll change.. i reallly dont know what should i do how can i handle this? its been almost a year should i still be hopeful? or is he just not the right friend maybe he never was? please if anyone could give me a good advise on last experiences or something! i am depressed from everything that i have gone thru nd having this problem is just not letting me trust anyone any kind of friend.. and i really dnt need more problems..
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