Hopeful30 Posted March 21, 2011 Posted March 21, 2011 I've weighed the factors. From physical appearances to the moral support they provide. I can't choose between my ex and this new guy. They are both such wonderful people, they don't deserve what i'm doing to them. They both know I am stuck between the two of them. They both know I love them both but this isn't how it works. It's one or the other, and if I can't pick one then I never truly loved either. But then why am I so torn between them? I have been crying and crying because both are such good men, and i'm horrible for going back and forth. I've tried to sit myself down, and think about myself. What do I want, without thinking of either of them, or their feelings, or how good they are to me. What do I want? Its been 7 months of me going back and forth and I can't decide. The right thing to do would be to leave both and be alone, but I love both of them. This is so f*ucked up, i'm so f*ucked up.
Mme. Chaucer Posted March 21, 2011 Posted March 21, 2011 I've weighed the factors. From physical appearances to the moral support they provide. I can't choose between my ex and this new guy. They are both such wonderful people, they don't deserve what i'm doing to them. They both know I am stuck between the two of them. They both know I love them both but this isn't how it works. In real life, or in fantasy? In your post of just yesterday, you said that you had not seen or spoken to "him" for 8 months, since the break up. What's the real story? Or, is there a whole additional guy in this story? It's one or the other, and if I can't pick one then I never truly loved either. Who says? But then why am I so torn between them? I have been crying and crying because both are such good men, and i'm horrible for going back and forth. I've tried to sit myself down, and think about myself. What do I want, without thinking of either of them, or their feelings, or how good they are to me. What do I want? Its been 7 months of me going back and forth and I can't decide. The right thing to do would be to leave both and be alone, but I love both of them. This is so f*ucked up, i'm so f*ucked up. Sounds a little like a bodice ripping romance novel to me. If this is a real situation, what you need to do is take a break from both of them, or all of them. A BREAK. Time out. Then figure out who you want to be with. Or, be polyamorous.
Author Hopeful30 Posted March 21, 2011 Author Posted March 21, 2011 It's true, I haven't spoken to him in 8 months. Just today I texted him and he called me, we began to talk and that's when I became torn between the two of them again. I'm f*cked in the head. When I am with one, I miss the other. When I choose one, I regret not choosing the other. I agree with you that I need time to be away from both of them, and most likely neither of them will be there when I finally make a choice. But that's what I would deserve.
Author Hopeful30 Posted March 21, 2011 Author Posted March 21, 2011 It's true, I haven't spoken to him in 8 months. Just today I texted him and he called me, we began to talk and that's when I became torn between the two of them again. I'm f*cked in the head. When I am with one, I miss the other. When I choose one, I regret not choosing the other. I agree with you that I need time to be away from both of them, and most likely neither of them will be there when I finally make a choice. But that's what I would deserve.
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