lolo1234 Posted March 17, 2011 Posted March 17, 2011 So this morning I got up and had a great day. Met up with a friend for lunch, took a dance class, spent time with the kids watching Bambi... etc. Then I got this urge tonite to listen to sad love songs. Uggh just spent at least an hour bawling my eyes out ON PURPOSE. I mean is that healthy??? I don't know. It felt kind of good though :/ I just hope this doesn't set me back. Damn its crazy how badly I want to get over this guy. At least its better than being crazy about wanting him back right? I just want this mourning period to be over with already damnit! But I have to admit, I've improved. Oh and its been 5 days NC. Lately I've been fantasizing that he eventually does reach out to me and it takes me a few days to get back to him and of course I've happily moved on and maybe I have a new boyfriend that I'm crazy about and blah blah blah. Whatever its still thinking about him. I want to get to that place where I feel completely INDIFFERENT.
coltsfan1 Posted March 17, 2011 Posted March 17, 2011 that is totally normal, you are only at 5 days NC. We all went through a period where we mourn the loss of a friend and lover. You have to keep giving it time. Try and find the good in the little things then you will over time be back to yourself. I have been NC for almost 7 months and some days I have been great and other days I have to force myself not fall to pieces.
Strength of Heart Posted March 17, 2011 Posted March 17, 2011 I'm doing that exact same thing right now, listening to a song that brings me flashbacks of every sweet memory we shared together. Crying is very very healthy, as long as you are not having emotional breakdowns and anxiety/panic attacks then it is perfectly healthy.
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