LDR - Gf's left after 2 and a half years :(

[Sam4saints]

Well heres the story, I met this girl on the internet 3 years ago, we live 300 miles away. We always got on from the start and 6 months later we met in london and had the most amazing day together. We promised wed do it again and we did a month later and it was even better. We started going out after the first time and we saw each other then on every 2 weeks, either she would stay at mine for the weekend or I would stay at hers. We also sometimes spend the week together on occasions. Lately I thought things were better than ever, we were talking about starting a family together and how much she would love my baby. She was saying she wants us to engaged and move in together, I wasnt sure about all this at first, but for the last few weeks ive been all for the idea. Maybe starting a family with her was for the best. We used to have the most amazing times together, always staring in each others eyes saying how in love with each other we were, and that we would never ever leave each other. We were always crying together if I had to go or had a massive heart to heart moment. But she loved that I would cry and we both just used to hold each other for hours non stop. I thought nothing in the world could ever seperate us.

 

But I drove 300 miles the other week after work (the last time ive seen her) and things were yet again perfect.. I couldnt have wished for a better day and night, but after that, maybe a week after this shes started seeing an old girl mate again who has always made us fall out, and since shes been seeing her shes told me she wants nothing to do with me. She doesnt answer my calls, she doesnt text me back anymore. I am absolutly heartbroken, only a few days ago i texted her asking if we were over for good and she never wanted us to be together again and all I got in reply was a "bye". I crashed my car on saturday because of this, ended up in hospital and she couldnt care less, Ive been feeling that id rather not be here anymore, words cant descrive how i feel towards her and what im feeling now because shes left me. Im always texting her still asking why and how could her feelings change just like that but I never get a reply, Because it was a long distance relationship we always texted each other 24/7, ive been told to stop texting her by friends and mum but they dont understand how hard it is. Im constantly worried about what shes doing when shes not texting me back etc, and when i do leave her alone, eg, not text her for 6-7 hours, il get one random text from her and then i wont get a reply

 

I just really dont know what to do anymore, im phsyically lost without her and dont think I can go, I really dont know if im being played along or what :/ All I know is that this time 2 weeks ago we were absoutly perfect and wanted to start a family and now everythings changed