thewolfishguy Posted March 16, 2011 Posted March 16, 2011 hello i would like to say sorry first as this is a long one i need advise and i am in alot of heartbroken pain.. i have been with a girl in a on and off relationship for 10 years she was my first relationship and i had little expiriance she was allso the first girl i ever slept with i am no saint i did stupid things i was unfaitfull not in person but on chatrooms and such and i sent a stupid pic to a woman that was intrested in me .ex found it and we broke up this was 2 months after she had found out she was pregnant but misscarried *she has polycystic overys* and we did not think she could concive i never talked about the upset to her because i wanted to be strong ..at the time i was unemployed i lived my life though her was scared to get a job again lazy ..and not very nice to be arround .we broke up for 4 months during the time we were appart i improved myself and got myself a new job ..i contacted her . letting her know my empolyment status and saying i wanted to pay her back for the time i was unemployed ..she agreed to this ..sadly in the mean time her dog off 13 years died and she was distressed i tryed to do my best to help being there for her to talk what ever she needed i was upset to was a ace dog. and before long we started sleeping together again .that has allways been fantastic between us so i held the job doing nights she allso does nights and we met up when our shifts combined each fortnight . soon however we were argueing over silly things she wanted the house redecorated ...and i tryed my best initaly but was so tired holding my job and doing this ..i allso belive something is wrong with me as i wanted to sleep all the time i was down there soon i got into doing my own thing when down there and she did to ...she was loveing and i was sometimes but the travel there and back to were i live keept getting on my nerves allso she did not want to commit to a relationsip ...fast forward to this weekend. on the sunday i decided to ask her about us about relationships ..she informed me that from what i had put her though she could no longer have a relationship with anyone ..i took that badly .i asked if anyone else had been showing a intrest ..and she infomed me that a married man had and someone else i enquired about the someone else she gave no details ..it all blew up and she basicly infomed me that with me she knew what she was getting and it kept her sexual need sorted ...in the morning she tryed to make love and i rejected her for the first time ever she called me a !**@! and went outside ..i ended up after a time caressing her and she said not to do that unless i wanted to make love ..i did ..and we did ..allso i increased the decorateing trying to get alot more done and promised her the next time i see her i would get more done ...that day i returned ..fell sleep got a email that i had not called her but by the time i had got up i was late for work got into work and they changed my hours ..so could not call her in the morning by the evening when i did get though before work i appologised for not being able to contact her she said she got my messages and it was ok then she said that she belived we should end the relationship it as we had ten years and we were not working and we should move on ...i broke down pleaded she cryed but to no avail she cried aswell saying every time i was down at hers i just argued and was nasty to her again i was upset and so sorry then said if i wanted her to lie and make it easyer for me to say she got someone else . i was shocked!! and i replyed dont lie theres no need ..i went to work ..got home phoned nothing emailed asking if she wanted to have no more contact ..nothing ..i could not sleep so went to the bank took out a large amount of money that i deemed repayed all i owed got some sorry flowers went down there just wanted to post the money and leave the flowers .but she was up she said she did not want the flowers or the money i however insisted and she kept it ..i asked if we were back to no contact again and she said thats for the best initaly ...**initaly???* then she said that i should move on and date someone else as she is dateing someone this week ..i held my temper and the feelings i felt and nodded she then gave me my things i had there in 2 bags and i left ..i phoned her right after ..saying in time i hoped that we could still be freinds ..she said perhaps i again asked her about this guy she was dateing and she gave no details but then she asked me how long i had known ???? i was shocked and a week poped into my head so i said it she replyed oh funny thats longer than we knew i said silly things like i hope your date goes well but in truth i hope he has a small dick ..i know i know but it just came out!! i said i would improve and that i hoped to win her back .i reminded her how hot we were and she reminded me of our first time ..i then came back home ..wrote a email saying i respected her decision and i would not contact her giveing her my mobile and other contact details in case she ever needs me ..and thats been that no contact as i expected realy but i have been deverstated i have prob done everything wrong that a guy could do ..advice please ..thankyou
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