I stand up for myself like my freind told me to for 15yrs an now she hates me..

[ohmy3]

I stand up for myself like my freind of 15yrs said i should do an now she hates me........

 

I was sexual abuse by 3 people in life time as a child ,2 not family, an 1 a sibling, all that being said i had a co depessidenience on acceptance after theropy an yrs to move on from the seaxaul abuse an what i thought was close freind i have known for 15 yrs (amazing as in my adult yrs cz i went to 20 shcools in my child hood) we meet as adults an hit it off an matiended a freindship for 15 yrs , a 1st for me to know someone that long an not be unrooted, an shes been a wonderful freind, lissen an be the 1st to tell you when soemone was wrong however i have grown a back bone in the yr we've known ea. other all was ok till i started telling her sometimes the things she say to me weren't to cool w/ me . now she hates me cz like shes has done for so many yrs spoke her mind an talk badly abut all the people in her life an i not say a thing tomake a heated sisuation based on her view, as she was right to her by her view of whatever was going on in any one eles life i was just so happy to have some onefor 15 yrs in my life id bite my tough even if i felt her view of the dealing w/ someones life she was outta line with an once i loved myself enough an grew a backbone id say once in awhile maybe that other person whome-ever she be talkinga about was jut having a rough timre she get mad an things bulit up avoer a 5 months time of her talking about about everyone an i speak what may be poss. w/ them an to give em' the benfit of the dought unless they prove differnt an now she hates me an wont speak to me its been from sept. of 2010, for a face to face for us i have texted her 3-4 times an offer to speak to her face to face to speak to her an that i was sorry if i upset her but she refuses... so weird....... shell reply via text if i call have 3 times in 5 months wont call back, she knows all this she text me an tell me its all my fault an finds me rude....... when shes so rude i have just told her my view when she ask me, ani say plz. just be between her an i, maybe whomever she was complaing about that day was having a bad day. after 15yrrs of her bad mouthing everyone she know i mean every 1, to everyone i ever been around an no one says a word to her as they dont want to get in to conflict w/ her.............

i tried to offer to talk to her face to face an sort our freindship cz i am to blame cz i stared standing up for myself when she say thing that you don't say to a freind of 15 yrs......... so weird..... i feel kinda lost w/ out our freindship as she live smack dab acroos the rd form me however it is not meant to be now an it sucks knowing i have attemped 3 times via text as only way she replies to 98% OF HUMANS she wont meet up w. me to talk i know i have tried honestly tried w/ peace in my heart