henna1213 Posted March 5, 2011 Posted March 5, 2011 No contact. These two words have been eating away at me for the past four months. My ex boyfriend--- who happened to be my first boyfriend, was a toxic person and our relationship was pretty much an emotionally abusive one. He never appreciated anything I did, never complimented me, or treated me right. He would verbally abuse me, he never trusted me and was completely jealous and possessive. I don't know why I still miss him after he treated me so horribly--- he called me a bitch numerous times, always assumed that I was with other guys, spit on me, tried to hit me and like an idiot, I stayed because I loved him and I believed he would change.The ironic part of it all was that my ex ended up cheating on me. It still makes me sick to think about it, and although him and the girl that he cheated on me with are not together, he was already in a new relationship a month and a half after we broke up. The new girl he is with is a senior at my high school (I graduated last year.) At first, I thought he was with her to spite me, but I think he is actually in love with her and treating her better, just from looking at his facebook, which I can't help but look at. Me and my ex were together for a year and a half on and off and like I said, he was my first boyfriend, my first time, etc. I just want to be over him, I think about him all the time and I want to give in and call him all the time because it is so hard for me to stick with this no contact rule--- our breakup was mostly mutural, and I was not willing to stay with him after I found out he cheated on me. Why do I still miss him? Is this normal after this long? I feel as if because he didn't appreciate me or love me, no one else will. I hate feeling like this. I just think it's crazy how breakups work, once you breakup, you can't talk to your ex anymore and you're back to being strangers. Will I ever talk to him again? I don't know what to do and I hate feeling lonely and depressed.
spackle Posted March 6, 2011 Posted March 6, 2011 in which case ask yourself why you would care for someone who treated you so badly? why would you want to talk to him? what do you think would happen? he would drop to his knees and apologise for being a **** to you, beg your forgiveness and promise he'd be different if you took him back? Sorry if that sounds harsh, like most people here we've been through it. Sometimes you need a hug, sometimes you need a kick up the ass to get your head straight. It WILL get better. x
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