tincanman99 Posted March 4, 2011 Posted March 4, 2011 I have to say I really have a crush on this woman. I finally admitted it to myself . I know I have been fighting it looking for any excuse in the world not to like her (see my thread about her friend comment). Seriously I am joking but I really liking her. And I never like anyone, EVER . Its been messed up for a long time, I was just emotionally turned off. I am not gay, not closeted in anyway. I just have been shut down emotionally for years. Like a dead, burned out hulk of a guy. I am not joking. I just got to the point I dont want to be involved with anyone, dont want any problems and if I sense any leave. I will look for any excuse to disappear. I attribute this change to a woman friend of mine. I have been friends with her for 2 years now and when you see someone all the time you change whether you want to admit or not. I am fairly close with her and its not sexual, we are just very good friends. She has been through multiple boyfriends in that time. She has always been incredibly supportive. I think she helped relax around women because I was exposed to her on a constant basis and got to see her when she was up, down, happy, sad, horny and sick and having problems. I think it helped realize that women are people too. Many women have told me that they find me now incredibly calm, charming and soothing to them now. I just dont hit on them till recently. I did not used to be like this. I used to be standoffish and very shy. I am not threatened by them any longer, dont judge them nor am mean to them. I am just relaxed in front of them and I think they pick it up. Anyway as far as this woman is concerned its very odd. She is cute and has a great body but thats not what does it. I have never ever dated an athlete and she really is an athlete. Not the kind of girl I typically look at. She has an incredible disposition and vibe about her, she is very calm, sensuous (I never use this word) and positive. I only really started talking to her about 3 weeks ago and it feels like I already know her for years. Its really weird, I cant explain it. Its one of these things where you click with someone. I start talking to her and the next thing a 1/2 hour has gone by. In my lifetime I have only clicked with like 2 other women like this. I know she loves talking to me because I can see it in her face. She lights up. Usually its an effort, with this one there is no effort. Time to open my mouth and ask her out. It may crash and burn but I hope not...
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