She Broke Up with Me!

[Love lorn 1976]

Well lemme see where do i begin?

I had been seeing my girlfriend for a little over three months.

Normally its not such a big deal, but it was for me because i had devoted so much of my time to my job that i virtually forgot about my personel life.

So when it happened it was really quick and all i can say is i had forgotten how wonderful being with someone else could be you know?

The hard thing is how good she was to me not to say i wasn't good to her as well I mean she was constantly telling me about how i had treated her better then anyone else had in all her life and how good i was to her son. which is fine with me i have no children of my own and i like kids so it wasnt hard and he was really cute! She also went on to say how much i had given her as well that noone she ever dated did those things for her! The father of her child never saw her son or gave child support!

That she worked hard to do for herself which is one of the things i admired about her she is a nurse and had always taken care of herself. So here we are everything going great going out to eat when we can going to the movies or just hanging out at home with her and her son i was really happy!

Then a few weeks ago right before Valentines day she claimed she was going through all kinds of problems like with her family and that she had now begun to maybe have feelings for the father of her child because on one of the weekends she went home to see her family he asked if he could see his son and that her son got so excited it broke her heart and didnt know what to feel? This just came as a huge blow to me and i didnt even know what to say or think and was just broken hearted yet she said she wasnt trying to ignore or push me away but needed time to think about things she said she was always used to going things alone!

Of course i told her i was confused and didnt know what to say and she said we would talk about it later.

In the mean time i heard from other people that she was telling them she had already broken up with me so by now i was just totally devastated that i had to hear from other people what was happening and i felt like i had no say in the matter or control so i called her that evening and asked what was going on?

She said she didnt know but that the feelings where there for her ex and it wasnt fair to keep me hanging on the side while she tried to figure out what she wanted.

She also mentioned that she told me she had issues but i always felt it was playing because of all the things she would say about how her and her son loved me or that he said one day he told her he missed me! i would tell her all the time i was falling for her and she said that was great so what gives why get my heart and crush it like that then? why introduce me to her family and tell me how they told her i was a keeper and a great guy the best she had ever met so far?

i guess i just don't understand where things went wrong or fell apart the sad thing is i still care and want her back and hang on because she tends to text every so often to check on me she claims! i have been strong and havent beg because really i dont feel like i have too! I gave this relationship my all and to tell you the truth i dont wanna be alone for another seven years or even one for that matter! I guess i also wanna know that maybe she will realize what she had in me and try to come back but as the days and weeks pass it seems like that window is closing!